my depression consists mostly of grief, grief of all I lost. My health, my life, my vitality, my happiness… and grief of what could have been, if my life wouldn't been destroyed by this mf psychiatrist. I live in a constant state of grief and rage, flashbacks and intrusive thoughts about the past and all the events that lead to the destruction of my life, it tortures me mentally, along with the deteriorating body I have to live in since this happened :(