I would like to disappear forever from this senseless world

[ChamberOfEchoes]

I'm tired; I no longer have the will to live or to work. Even the smallest task feels like a burden, and if I know that the next day I'll have to meet someone, even just to talk about bills or let a technician into the house, I can't sleep. The very idea of interacting, of explaining, of being present exhausts me. I can't stand people, their lightness, their frenzy. I just want to disappear, to dissolve from this existence that constantly demands something from me actions, answers, participation for their happiness, for their madness. But I don't like any of it. I feel unwell. I have never found meaning in studying, in working, in building something, or in cultivating relationships. Nothing attracts me, nothing fulfills me. The body, to me, is just another prison, a wall of flesh separating me from absence, from silence. To transcend the body would be like escaping from Alcatraz. I can't go on anymore; I'm at the end of my strength, and all that remains is a weariness that never sleeps.

 

[itsgone2]

Even the smallest task feels like a burden,

100%. So tired of living like this

 

[_Gollum_]

You have articulated what I have not been able to articulate, but what I have felt for too long. Thanks for sharing.

 

[Greasyhair]

Mood. Is that what the kids say?

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish for the same, it's all I want, I always suffer so much as a result of being enslaved in this torturous, futile and deeply undesirable existence, all I want is to disappear from it all, I just wish for all to be forgotten like I never suffered at all.