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d4isy

d4isy

worthless
May 30, 2023
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dying painlessly and peacefully is my biggest wish. i'm too scared to do partial because i feel like i'll mess up or someone's gonna find me prematurely. people who have access to pentobarbital are so damn lucky..

i just wanna drift off knowing all my problems will be gone forever.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,240
I agree. I wish we could make our own pentobarbital but we have more chances to go to the moon...
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
don't trust anyone who messages you saying they have it. Since you posted this thread with this title, there's a chance someone might reach out. It's a scam. Just don't fall for it.

It is available. But you're never going to find it online. No one's going to ship it. Those days are gone. If you really want it, you're going to have to go to certain countries and ask around. Knock on doors.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,365
in a world that wasn't pure hell Nembutal would be available for purchase like around $50 or less for 18 grams a few bottles. ( that's how much pet Pentobarbital costs in South American countries) . at least to people above the age of consent which many say is 18 .no questions asked you want to buy and use Nembutal that should be our choice just like we want to buy a certain smart phone. . and i know they came up with this 18 and now doing age verification everywhere for even the internet but they won't allow even for 18 to purchase nembutal . they won't allow even over age 80 and in constant pain to buy nembutal , morphine , fenanyl nothing to escape extreme torture : anyone who would want to live in this injustice imo is uninformed or heavily programed to want to be a slave and to risk unbearable pain they don't even know exists without a way out.
 
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CandyCane

Student
Mar 11, 2022
156
SAME! I heard something about how it's so restricted because they were using it in death penalty cases.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,483
I wish for the same, it's all I want, all I wish for is an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I can be at peace from this torturous, futile and dreadful existence and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just access it as all I want is to never exist again, non-existence is just all I see as desirable, I hope you find peace.
 
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tapetum_lucidum

tapetum_lucidum

Member
Mar 12, 2023
57
Vets also use it to euthanize animals.
I work in a vet clinic, I've been considering this method lately. I think it would be easy enough to steal a bottle.
 
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Freedomm

Freedomm

Student
Aug 2, 2025
183
dying painlessly and peacefully is my biggest wish. i'm too scared to do partial because i feel like i'll mess up or someone's gonna find me prematurely. people who have access to pentobarbital are so damn lucky..

i just wanna drift off knowing all my problems will be gone forever.
Yes, my main fear is reliability. I would like to just know that I will die. The unknown outcome is annoying. With Pentobarbital, everything would be much easier.
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
919
I think I'm going to apply at a vet clinic 🤔 So once hired, do we immediately ask where the phenobarbital is at or just look for the bottle? How can we guarantee they will have some? Do you think the local zoo keeps that stuff in stock🤔 How many does one need?
 
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jag1

Member
Aug 31, 2025
36
I wish. One place tried to sell it to me for like $500 seemed like a scam.
 
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