I won’t know I’m dead

[Epsilon0]

One of the things that bothers me the most about death is that once I take my last breath, my consciousness will evaporate, and so I won't be able to get even a tiny bit of satisfaction out of the knowledge that I am no longer a prisoner of my existence.

I so, so, so badly want to taste the liberation from pain and be able to say to myself: You are free. All you have endured has come to an end. You can feel completely happy and safe knowing there will be no more tomorrows.

Isn't it the ultimate irony? I'll die but I won't know it.



"Yes, death. Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one's head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no to-morrow. To forget time, to forget life, to be at peace."

The one and only Oscar Wilde

 

[Yomyom]

I just can't understand that one day I just won't be.
It's so weird when I think about, The inability to feel nothing, Comforting and terrifying at the same time

 

[faraway_beach]

Never to know you were successful in your escape. I think I get it.

 

[Fragile]

death is the only victory that i'll celebrate before it's done, this is the only victory that i'll never taste.

at least this is a good excuse to go on a month long drug bender before i'm gone for good.

 

[PrettyMoose]

It would be nice if we were able to take on a ghostly form for a few moments after death in order to know such things and then from there evaporate into nothing. That's the only way that I can think of that would allow us to personally confirm our own deaths. I certainly wouldn't want to be stuck in ghost form, to still exist in some form yet be unable to end it. That would be horrible.

 

[Despondent]

I never thought about it that way -- It's crazy now that I think about it and I too wish that I could feel the same.

It's also weird to think about when you're no longer concious, you won't even "see" black. Or at least you will, just not in the concious mind. And that will be for hundreds of thousands of years -- no end

If that makes any sense at all lol It's pretty late for me

 

[LaLune]

This is the kind of thing I overthink about. What will it be like when I'm no longer conscious? It's such an abstract idea that I can't seem to wrap my thoughts around it...

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

 

[Deleted member 1465]

If there is nothing then no one can experience freedom. It's one of the reasons why religions exist.

 

[miguel6565]

i struggle whit this alot,i think as myself being a overthinker drives me crazy think this way,i try to think when i first go to sleep via anestesia

 

[Epsilon0]

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[Soulless_Angel]

I do think it depends on your method though, because in some cases if you know the CTB you are planning is defo going to be the end then surely that would give soem comfort, as you take the option, knowing those are your last few moments in this existence

 

[Squiddy]

Yeah it bothers me a little too and is another reason I haven't ctb yet

 

[Kikoo Loool]

Yea I've thought of that, it's a pity.

 

[Yomyom]

One of the things that bothers me the most about death is that once I take my last breath, my consciousness will evaporate, and so I won't be able to get even a tiny bit of satisfaction out of the knowledge that I am no longer a prisoner of my existence.

I so, so, so badly want to taste the liberation from pain and be able to say to myself: You are free. All you have endured has come to an end. You can feel completely happy and safe knowing there will be no more tomorrows.

Isn't it the ultimate irony? I'll die but I won't know it.



"Yes, death. Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one's head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no to-morrow. To forget time, to forget life, to be at peace."

The one and only Oscar Wilde

You have no idea how much i think about it lately.
It's like a huge annoying paradox, and there is no answer

 

[faraway_beach]

 

[Giraffey]

One of the most beautiful things I have ever experienced is what you could describe as pure 'nothingness', consciousness in its purest form.

I was asleep but I was conscious. My mind was awake and able to think, the only sound I could hear was my own internal monologue, I could see nothing but blackness. I had no physical body (or representation of one), no sense of self or presence - nothing but my consciousness.

I stayed in that state for just a few minutes, feeling pure peace, and then I experienced what I am sure the moment of death itself must feel like, my consciousness 'faded' and a moment later I woke up. It is difficult to put into words the experience of that fading, any remotely adequate description seems to fail to capture the ineffable, dimensionless and purely subjective qualities that are almost impossible to translate for an objective observer.

It was peaceful and beautiful, and it cured my fear of death.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Maybe off-topic: it's the not knowing by death that I equate to brain damage, also a risk with my chosen method. Either way I won't know and either way I won't care.

Win-win...

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

I'll die but I won't know it.

Imagine you just died and you stop feeling pain (what you want) but you look around and its all dark. You try to touch yourself but there are no hands and body.. Instead of pain you will now feel panic and extreme fear...

So I am thankful that I won't know that I am dead. I just won't exist anyone without knowing..how great is that?!

Does this help you feel a little bit more at ease @Epsilon0? I hope so..