Story I wonder

[Sweetcheeks]

I wonder what would have happened if I had just talked to you.
If instead of lashing out at myself, I actually just told you the truth about me.
I wonder if you could love me, if you would give me a chance to be in your life. To be happy with you, instead of you thinking the worst about me. You know, when I first laid eye on you, for me, I loved you then. And I love you now. When I heard your voice telling me to get off the tracks. I knew you loved me too. But I wish there was more. I wish you wanted to be with me. I often daydream about you. And I smile, really big. A genuine happiness that I've never felt before. Never. Pure, endless longing.
S.P.
Will you notice when I am gone? Will it even matter?

 

[timf]

It sounds like you are a bit of an artist. The imagery you create touches on the poetic. One problem artistic people can have is that what they see in their minds can make what they see in real life seem unsatisfactory. The minds view can be so attractive as to lead one to neglect real life.

One way artistic people can connect with the real world is through their art. If you can bring the light you see into the lives of others you might be able to give inspiration and get some of that light reflected back to you.