Defintion: A self-defeating prophecy (self-destroying or self-denying in some sources) is the complementary opposite of a self-fulfilling prophecy; a prediction that prevents what it predicts from happening. This is also known as the prophet's dilemma.
I am very anxious about self-fulfilling prophecies. I am often very pessimistic about my future because the past was so nightmarish. I always try with everything I have to find a way to live. I have done insane shit most people would have given up on after a short time. Especially I did this to avoid self-fulfilling prophecies. I mean by that that I try approaches I don't really believe in. I try to stay open to new ideas. This kind of helped to improve the current situation.
I often ruminate about my suicide and that there is no escape for me. I wished in this instance this might be a self-defeating prophecy. By always being anxious and always searching for a solution to my problems maybe the seemingly impossible could happen. Despite the odds are against me I hope I could find a way to live. I think one can not say per se whether such a state is really helfpul or not. My daily worries torture me quite literally. But they also motivate me. However being fully driven by anxiety is not really comfortable. When I see how people with a normal education can get strength I envy that.
I talk a lot about my suicide. I have now suicidal thoughts for more than a decade. With like 1 year gap (manic episode) during that period. There is this little hope in me that my pessimism could prevent a new mania. I am very careful concerning manic thoughts. I really started to hate them. By over-analyzing them this is kind of a counterstrategy. Many people in my bipolar self-help group crave for manias. I rather think about the longterm consequences. However it would be probably hubris to think I could defeat this illness by logic and rationality. This illness is way too powerful.
I could imagine this strategy is for people without bipolar not that helpful. Moreover it is probably also not helpful for all bipolar people. But for me it feels like a shield. It gives me the feeling of empowerment to have so much knowledge on my illness. On the other hand it is often an illness that procedes in cycles. Maybe I had no chance to begin with. But this very careful strategy concerning manic symptoms helped me. I know mania can feel fantastic. Though I hate to lose the control of my behavior one reason why I hate drugs. Furthermore the time afterwards might be lethal for me.
I am very anxious about self-fulfilling prophecies. I am often very pessimistic about my future because the past was so nightmarish. I always try with everything I have to find a way to live. I have done insane shit most people would have given up on after a short time. Especially I did this to avoid self-fulfilling prophecies. I mean by that that I try approaches I don't really believe in. I try to stay open to new ideas. This kind of helped to improve the current situation.
I often ruminate about my suicide and that there is no escape for me. I wished in this instance this might be a self-defeating prophecy. By always being anxious and always searching for a solution to my problems maybe the seemingly impossible could happen. Despite the odds are against me I hope I could find a way to live. I think one can not say per se whether such a state is really helfpul or not. My daily worries torture me quite literally. But they also motivate me. However being fully driven by anxiety is not really comfortable. When I see how people with a normal education can get strength I envy that.
I talk a lot about my suicide. I have now suicidal thoughts for more than a decade. With like 1 year gap (manic episode) during that period. There is this little hope in me that my pessimism could prevent a new mania. I am very careful concerning manic thoughts. I really started to hate them. By over-analyzing them this is kind of a counterstrategy. Many people in my bipolar self-help group crave for manias. I rather think about the longterm consequences. However it would be probably hubris to think I could defeat this illness by logic and rationality. This illness is way too powerful.
I could imagine this strategy is for people without bipolar not that helpful. Moreover it is probably also not helpful for all bipolar people. But for me it feels like a shield. It gives me the feeling of empowerment to have so much knowledge on my illness. On the other hand it is often an illness that procedes in cycles. Maybe I had no chance to begin with. But this very careful strategy concerning manic symptoms helped me. I know mania can feel fantastic. Though I hate to lose the control of my behavior one reason why I hate drugs. Furthermore the time afterwards might be lethal for me.
