i wish/want to get terminall illness/cancer

[huntergirl14]

its very awful i know but i wish I could get one,or just exchange illness of someone who is non-suicidal... is there a way to get a terminal illness like cancer?

i think that way I can live my fullest, when I would know for certain I'm gonna die early,

so sorry if this post offends anyone.

 

[Stormy Raine]

I been praying for a terminal illness forever and still haven't received one. I only go to the doctor if I'm unable to work and can't pay my bills, other than that I don't care if I'm healthy! I feel bad admitting this because there are so many people fighting to live and praying for a miracle, it's unfair they deserve it, not me!

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally think that those who have the knowledge that they will be free from everything soon are fortunate, they just have to wait and soon enough the suffering will end. But I don't really envy anyone who is still trapped here, I just envy those who no longer exist as they are free from everything.

 

[huntergirl14]

medically,, is it possible to get a terminal illness? like by eating something etc?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It's a hard, painful, slow way to go.

 

[Glandular]

I have a chronic degenerative disease and it's the whole reason I'm here. It's not terminal but I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy. If you're healthy you don't notice that you are healthy. You only notice how much has been taken from you once your health is gone. I'm in the early stages but I still suffer from my symptoms every single day. I'm in pain most of the time and I'm slowly forgetting how it used to be when everything was alright. It's not only the pain but everything that surrounds the disease - needing to see doctors all the time, getting exhausting physical exams, always anxious of the results and of what will happen next, worrying about all the medical side effects and so on. It's torture.
A terminal disease doesn't mean that you will just simply die early - no, you will suffer immensely. It will torture you to death. If you want to exit, just use a method of your liking but forget about "getting cancer".

 

[liljeep]

I don't think it's necessarily offensive, just a bit ignorant of the actual experience of having a terminal illness. I've been following the blog of someone terminally ill for years, and they are always getting plasma infusions, can barely sleep, have frequent life/death scares, etc... and do not take pain medications either. They know they will die, it is just unsure when, and they aren't even suicidal. They are prolonging their life as long as they can with the infusions and seeking help to get into a different living situation where they can still access those. I can't imagine going through that. It's constant suffering, and assisted suicide isn't usually offered for terminally ill patients either. It is just a waiting game. And everyone will die someday, whether it is made sure the date is vaguely soon because of a terminal illness; or just the chance of getting in an accident, having a fatal medical emergency, getting murdered, etc...

 

[suicidalloser]

It's a hard, painful, slow way to go.

no it's not stop fear mongering
with it i can get euthanasia—since it's only reserved for the terminally ill

 

[nightshade00]

It's a hard, painful, slow way to go.

But at least maybe more people would accept my suicide if they could tell themselves "he was dealing with terminal illness, so we understand".

edit: I know that's not OP's point, but it's my view on if I had a terminal or other major illness.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

But at least maybe more people would accept my suicide if they could tell themselves "he was dealing with terminal illness, so we understand".

edit: I know that's not OP's point, but it's my view on if I had a terminal or other major illness.

I don't disagree with you on your point, but I feel I don't have to justify anything I do, especially to my own body, my own life, to anyone other than myself, so long as what I do doesn't hurt anyone else in any physical sense. I cannot control how anyone might react to something I do, so that doesn't figure into my calculus.

 

[todiefor]

I can understand that you must be in so much pain and emotional turmoil, what you feel certainly is like a terminal physical illness, but society doesn't really see them the same way so exit is harder, less people understand you, makes your journey much more lonely and difficult in some ways. It makes sense that you why would look at terminal physical illness as a good escape. Also a physical terminal illness doesn't require you to actively do something to die and that must seem comforting to you being faced with that very daunting task.

But as others said above, think about on it more maybe, the grass isn't necessarily greener on the other side. Terminal illness almost always comes with impossibly difficult to deal with physical pain, it's hard to know what that's like, similar to extreme emotional pain, unless you've been there. I think you will find very few terminal illness sufferers to wish it upon anyone, not even their worse enemy as @Glandular said.

Like please, don't try to acquire a terminal illness so it's easier to ctb, please. Definitely talk about it though and we are all here to listen and we can all understand why.

 

[schrei_nach_liebe]

Trust me you don't wish that, I deal with the dead and dying all the time. Very very seldom do I see anything that's peaceful and relatively painless. What we should wish for is a freak event like the ruzzians dropping a nuke within 10 miles of us so we just get knocked out by the pressure wave due to the anesthetic effects of nitrogen at high pressure, and then to be vaporized within seconds. and the people who don't want to ctb being unaffected of course.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

no it's not stop fear mongering
with it i can get euthanasia—since it's only reserved for the terminally ill

I thought this thread was about the OPs life, issues, plight, dilemma? I've seen 3 people die of cancer, and yes, it is a terrible, slow, painful death. You don't know what you're talking about. But, of course, it's easier to just make it all about you.

 

[huntergirl14]

I'm sorry.

But the whole reason i said is because in my culture, if someone commits suicide they are not given a funeral etc and its the worst thing ever. I know I don't believe in all that made up crap but my family does and I don't want the society to treat my family like crap.


So thats why i was thinking if i could die with a medical issue atleast it will be like a normal death.

I don't mean to offend anyone or undermine anyone's experiance


P.s. suicide is also banned here. I.e. if you attempt and fail at doing it correctly you are sent to jail. So thats why. Maybe if i could enlist myself in army etc, but here even the girl soliders dont fight on the frontlines, they are mostly nurses etc.

 

[todiefor]

I'm sorry.

But the whole reason i said is because in my culture, if someone commits suicide they are not given a funeral etc and its the worst thing ever. I know I don't believe in all that made up crap but my family does and I don't want the society to treat my family like crap.


So thats why i was thinking if i could die with a medical issue atleast it will be like a normal death.

I don't mean to offend anyone or undermine anyone's experiance


P.s. suicide is also banned here. I.e. if you attempt and fail at doing it correctly you are sent to jail. So thats why. Maybe if i could enlist myself in army etc, but here even the girl soliders dont fight on the frontlines, they are mostly nurses etc.

I'm sorry that's horrid, on top of everything you are dealing with you also have to deal with suicide being a crime, that's just argh, I'm sorry.

 

[MiraiShisen]

its very awful i know but i wish I could get one,or just exchange illness of someone who is non-suicidal... is there a way to get a terminal illness like cancer?

i think that way I can live my fullest, when I would know for certain I'm gonna die early,

so sorry if this post offends anyone.

trust me with terminal illness you would not be able to live your fullest, if I do not count pain, thats number one reason why I am going ctb myself because am just rotting in my bed not being able to enjoy anything. You will see it everywhere, that opportunities everyone else have and you do not, I fought hard for my opportunity but It was taken away from me no matter how hard I fought. I can see it even from people I do not know... you can visit some beautifull place ? Well I can not. You can eat whatever you want? Yeah I cant. You can do sports ? going to club with friends ? Having BBQ ? Go to swim with friends? Be able to learn new things? I can not. I know that you probably seek motivation but if thats your problem consider yourself lucky, because my motivation was driving me crazy, I had to force myself to learn about health, to go through doctors, I even forced myself to fast fo 21 days just to try if it helps. I just wanted to have peace in mind, relax after day in job, go to walk etc.. having normal boring day or life would be awesome. You dont wanna have "normal" painfull day or life it will change you into unstable person, people are not adapted to long term stress, and believe me terminal illness is a hell long term stress. I sometimes ask myself how am I not psycho yet ? Maybe I am but I am just to blind to notice. If you lack motivation maybe problem is in your neurotransmitters (dopamine, serotonine etc) there are aminoacids and supplements that can help with those. If you are addicted to some substances then thats maybe reason why you are not motivated. Maybe problem is in diet etc.

Terminal illness is just one way and you can not do anything about it, you just have to accept fact that no matter you will do, you will die either in pain when your illness consume and devour you, or by making your family and everyone who loves you sad because you can not bear pain and you kill yourself. Thats living with this shit.