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autumn68

autumn68

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Apr 4, 2025
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i've been on so many meds, seen so many therapists and nothing is helping me, i just feel numb. all i want is to finally go to sleep forever but whenever i try i get so scared of the process of dying. i've been slowly gearing up towards another attempt but it's all so violent and terrifying. i wish i could just fall asleep and never wake up. if anyone has any suggestions please share because i just feel lost.
 
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brokenreceptor

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Nov 28, 2024
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this is exactly how i feel. i tried to overdose on seroquel 11 years ago and had my stomach pumped but after my return from the hospital i slept the longest i ever did. things felt so bad back then, things feel so much worse now. like i had no idea it could ever get this bad. part of me thinks about doing something more violent because it feels like right now, i dont know how bad itll get.
 
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fedup1982

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Jul 17, 2025
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There are only hard ways to die for most of us, unfortunately. Society makes it so hard, it's easier to just live. Cunts
 
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nonliv

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Aug 30, 2024
32
Being scared is human and I personally believe most people here should seek help and get better even if it feels like walking on glass each day. I really wish you the best, and it might be selfish of me, but I hope you keep fearing death and heal from whatever is troubling you
 
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