I wish someone would just kill me

[Lost Magic]

If somebody killed me I would have no control over it. Good or bad, it would just happen. I would be dead. Survival instinct and my daily rituals are forcing me to go through this painful hell everyday of my miserable life. Just kill me now.

 

[whywere]

Hi! My heart broke when I read your post as you are a kind soul with a lot to give everyone here on SS. Having folks like you here helps me through the long chronic pain filled days and it would not be the same without you here.

My wish for you is a weekend filled with beautiful weather and doing what brings joy and a smile to your face. We are all in this together.

My heart felt hugs and lots of kindness to you.

Walter

 

[siray]

This will always be my most preferred method, make my death look like murder. What's there not to like about it, I get what I've wanted since 12 years (death), my family gets spared the crippling grief of my ctb, the hitman ensures 100% a painless death, I get spared the horrors of having to die by my own hands.

For some living in high crime cities, this might not be a fantasy. And if one can convince the hitman that the target will present itself to him and all the hitman will have to do is pull the trigger several times to the back of one's head, the price may be significantly low as compared to a normal target killing contract.

 

[Bigpink]

I feel the same, would be so much easier. Bugs me that I can't at the moment do it myself.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Would be my ideal method. Too bad it will never happen.

 

[Chiisai]

This will always be my most preferred method, make my death look like murder. What's there not to like about it, I get what I've wanted since 12 years (death), my family gets spared the crippling grief of my ctb, the hitman ensures 100% a painless death, I get spared the horrors of having to die by my own hands.

For some living in high crime cities, this might not be a fantasy. And if one can convince the hitman that the target will present itself to him and all the hitman will have to do is pull the trigger several times to the back of one's head, the price may be significantly low as compared to a normal target killing contract.

Oh how convenient would that be. Like paying the person to send you over the other side. If it were me, I'd pay the person and just needs to make sure im fully unaware of when its going to be else anxiousness kicks in.

Funny thought: What if you are the hitman but you are afraid to do yourself over and hiring others would expose your identity and the safety of your family? Haha no rest for the wicked eh.

 

[Midgardsorm]

I kinda can relate to all anime/video game villains that were ultimately only waiting for someone to come and kill them. Like Gwyn in Dark Souls or Toguro in Yu yu Hakusho.

It's like a dream, at least for me.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

Same here. It would be so much easier….

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand how you are feeling as non existence is the thing that I want and the survival instinct is hard to overcome. However, I would like control over when I die. I cannot imagine myself dying from anything other than suicide. The thing I want is euthanasia and we all deserve that option. It isn't as though we asked to be here in the first place. However that is not even legal. Existence is a nightmare.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I wish someone would kidnap me and force me to drink N. That would be my preferred method

 

[forgotten15]

Oh, I cannot tell you how many times I felt like this. Just want this stupid life to end. Why is it so hard to ctb? I am so tired of everything, I want peace.

 

[Lost21]

This would be my dream method

 

[meetapple]

No, because I would lose control over my autonomy. Also, due to my SI my last moments would be filled with terror.

 

[wanttodie]

I wish someone would just kill me like someone shoot me in the Heart​

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[SleepDealer]

This is why finding a CTB partner was appealing to me at first...

 

[PeacefulTonic]

I wish the same. It would cause much less pain for those in my life who love me, as opposed to ctbing myself. Too bad for those who wish for someone else to kill them, it never ends up being that way.

 

[czx85]

I wished that way 1000 times already, but it just won't happen.
Unless we become that killer ourselves...