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Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,204
If somebody killed me I would have no control over it. Good or bad, it would just happen. I would be dead. Survival instinct and my daily rituals are forcing me to go through this painful hell everyday of my miserable life. Just kill me now.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,413
Hi! My heart broke when I read your post as you are a kind soul with a lot to give everyone here on SS. Having folks like you here helps me through the long chronic pain filled days and it would not be the same without you here.

My wish for you is a weekend filled with beautiful weather and doing what brings joy and a smile to your face. We are all in this together.

My heart felt hugs and lots of kindness to you.

Walter
 
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siray

siray

the crucified
Dec 28, 2018
178
This will always be my most preferred method, make my death look like murder. What's there not to like about it, I get what I've wanted since 12 years (death), my family gets spared the crippling grief of my ctb, the hitman ensures 100% a painless death, I get spared the horrors of having to die by my own hands.

For some living in high crime cities, this might not be a fantasy. And if one can convince the hitman that the target will present itself to him and all the hitman will have to do is pull the trigger several times to the back of one's head, the price may be significantly low as compared to a normal target killing contract.
 
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Bigpink

Warlock
Oct 12, 2020
706
I feel the same, would be so much easier. Bugs me that I can't at the moment do it myself.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,771
Would be my ideal method. Too bad it will never happen.
 
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Chiisai

Chiisai

To infinity and beyond!
Sep 1, 2021
754
This will always be my most preferred method, make my death look like murder. What's there not to like about it, I get what I've wanted since 12 years (death), my family gets spared the crippling grief of my ctb, the hitman ensures 100% a painless death, I get spared the horrors of having to die by my own hands.

For some living in high crime cities, this might not be a fantasy. And if one can convince the hitman that the target will present itself to him and all the hitman will have to do is pull the trigger several times to the back of one's head, the price may be significantly low as compared to a normal target killing contract.
Oh how convenient would that be. Like paying the person to send you over the other side. If it were me, I'd pay the person and just needs to make sure im fully unaware of when its going to be else anxiousness kicks in.

Funny thought: What if you are the hitman but you are afraid to do yourself over and hiring others would expose your identity and the safety of your family? Haha no rest for the wicked eh.
 
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Midgardsorm

Midgardsorm

Paragon
Apr 28, 2020
917
I kinda can relate to all anime/video game villains that were ultimately only waiting for someone to come and kill them. Like Gwyn in Dark Souls or Toguro in Yu yu Hakusho.

It's like a dream, at least for me.
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
Same here. It would be so much easier….
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,587
I understand how you are feeling as non existence is the thing that I want and the survival instinct is hard to overcome. However, I would like control over when I die. I cannot imagine myself dying from anything other than suicide. The thing I want is euthanasia and we all deserve that option. It isn't as though we asked to be here in the first place. However that is not even legal. Existence is a nightmare.
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
I wish someone would kidnap me and force me to drink N. That would be my preferred method
 
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forgotten15

forgotten15

Specialist
Aug 24, 2021
332
Oh, I cannot tell you how many times I felt like this. Just want this stupid life to end. Why is it so hard to ctb? I am so tired of everything, I want peace.
 
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Lost21

Student
Sep 24, 2018
188
This would be my dream method
 
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meetapple

meetapple

Mage
Jun 3, 2021
585
No, because I would lose control over my autonomy. Also, due to my SI my last moments would be filled with terror.
 
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wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,827

I wish someone would just kill me like someone shoot me in the Heart​

art​

 
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SleepDealer

SleepDealer

Your Imaginary Friend
Aug 13, 2021
138
This is why finding a CTB partner was appealing to me at first...
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,006
I wish the same. It would cause much less pain for those in my life who love me, as opposed to ctbing myself. Too bad for those who wish for someone else to kill them, it never ends up being that way.
 
czx85

czx85

Student
Jun 8, 2019
133
I wished that way 1000 times already, but it just won't happen.
Unless we become that killer ourselves...
 

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