i wish somebody took me seriously.

[noonipie]

one of the only people i talk to about this type of thing always leaves the convo when it gets heavy (even though i comfort them through the same exact things all the time) and really only makes me feel annoying for talking about it. i wish i had someone who actually cared about me or took it seriously when i say these things. it just makes things worse man

 

[FuneralCry]

I just think the reality is that in this world you cannot rely on people, most people are too self centred to ever care and of course other people just don't understand anyway. Sadly this is just the way that things are, but I wish you the best, I don't really recommend being so open to other people about the subject of suicide in this anti choice society as it could very easily just make things worse and potentially cause other people to interfere with suicide plans if one has reached that point.

 

[noonipie]

I just think the reality is that in this world you cannot rely on people, most people are too self centred to ever care and of course other people just don't understand anyway. Sadly this is just the way that things are, but I wish you the best, I don't really recommend being so open to other people about the subject of suicide in this anti choice society as it could very easily just make things worse and potentially cause other people to interfere with suicide plans if one has reached that point.

i know. every time i get attached to someone it leaves me with the absolute worse anxiety and overwhelming suicidal thoughts. sometimes i really cant help getting attached even when i know what the outcome will be. most of the time im not stable enough to make good decisions on who i should be engaging with and investing in. i guess my only question is now, do you know how to deal with any of this stuff? like any advice on how to cope with absolutely suffocating anxiety while also being suicidal? im not ready to ctb yet for a number of reasons so i just really need to make it through these next few months.

 

[Stormy Raine]

It's a tough topic to discuss and it may be a trigger for the other person. Everyone doesn't understand and that person probably thinks they helped enough, you try explaining your feelings to them? You always have us btw

 

[noonipie]

It's a tough topic to discuss and it may be a trigger for the other person. Everyone doesn't understand and that person probably thinks they helped enough, you try explaining your feelings to them? You always have us btw

thank you. im trying to do anything i can just because i can't deal with it but myself right now. i hope they just stop being a jerk for the time being while i try to distance myself. i have some big stuff coming up and i cant deal with the crippling anxiety theyre causing me atm

 

[FuneralCry]

i know. every time i get attached to someone it leaves me with the absolute worse anxiety and overwhelming suicidal thoughts. sometimes i really cant help getting attached even when i know what the outcome will be. most of the time im not stable enough to make good decisions on who i should be engaging with and investing in. i guess my only question is now, do you know how to deal with any of this stuff? like any advice on how to cope with absolutely suffocating anxiety while also being suicidal? im not ready to ctb yet for a number of reasons so i just really need to make it through these next few months.

Honestly I've never been good with coping with existing as I'm not meant for such a thing. To me existing is something so awful and hopeless and the reality is that there is no real relief from suffering in this world unless one is able to sleep for a lot of the time which isn't always straightforward to achieve of course. But I think that if I knew that I was able to leave in a few months then I guess I would just think of how the end is near in order to make the remaining time left a bit more bearable. It's just the thought of being trapped here, suffering endlessly that is so horrible to me, I hate how difficult it is to die.