I wish my attempt worked

[miserabletranny]

I've never posted before and am unfamiliar with sites like this, so I apologize if this is posted in the wrong place or it's formatted wrong.
I attempted last year by cutting my left wrist, and every day I wish it worked. I hate being alive. I'm a disgusting tranny, and I will never be a real man. Every day that I don't kill myself is putting off the inevitable. No parent ever wants their child to end up trans. Nothing about me is masculine. I'm 4'10 for fuck's sake. I hate myself, and I wish I died years ago, but especially wish I died last year when I tried to.

The best thing I will ever do in my life is commit suicide, because I'll give statisticians another number.

 

[stupid trans guy]

As a trans masc, i get it. Its so fucking hard dude. Dont say your not a real man, because thats very subjective. If you would like to see other people like you, lgbtq+ support groups (js in general) helped me so much, and made me feel accepted (coming from a short king aswell <3) i hope i could help, if not reassure a little bit! I often feel i look like a butch lesbian sob

 

[miserabletranny]

As a trans masc, i get it. Its so fucking hard dude. Dont say your not a real man, because thats very subjective. If you would like to see other people like you, lgbtq+ support groups (js in general) helped me so much, and made me feel accepted (coming from a short king aswell <3) i hope i could help, if not reassure a little bit! I often feel i look like a butch lesbian sob

Thanks for replying. I wish I liked lgbt+ groups more, but it's hard to feel connected I guess. I have kinda severe dysphoria and it makes my life difficult. Being trans is the main reason I want to ctb.

 

[stupid trans guy]

Thanks for replying. I wish I liked lgbt+ groups more, but it's hard to feel connected I guess. I have kinda severe dysphoria and it makes my life difficult. Being trans is the main reason I want to ctb.

Is there anything you can do to help with dysphoria? Like if you cant get a binder or top surgery, using two sports bras? SAFELY ofc

Yeah some really suck.. theres might be some good online ones tho, if ur open to searching

You shouldnt want to kys, or try to kys, for something you cannot change.

 

[miserabletranny]

Is there anything you can do to help with dysphoria? Like if you cant get a binder or top surgery, using two sports bras? SAFELY ofc

Yeah some really suck.. theres might be some good online ones tho, if ur open to searching

You shouldnt want to kys, or try to kys, for something you cannot change.

I wear binders, I have short hair, I'm on test, I try to dress as masculinely as I can, I don't know what else I could be doing right now. I'm trying to get referred for top surgery, though it probably won't happen for a few years because my insurance sucks. Being trans is an absolute nightmare, and if I had one wish, it would be that I became a cis male. I would give anything to be cis. Estrogen raped my body, and I fucking hate it.

 

[stupid trans guy]

Thats good! Lwk ur lucky in my eyes, i hardly have access to anything besides a haircut.. sometimes what helps me if i dont feel masc enough is looking at other trans mens transitions, also i hope you get referred!! I hope one day i can get top surgery aswell, and then i could get a cool tattoo over my scars ! Yeah it sucks so much. Cis people have no clue how lucky they are... try not to think abt impossible things rn, maybe focus on the excitement of hopefully getting referred? Yeah estrogen sucks balls dude and not in a good way, i have a trans fem friend and we always joke abt switching bodies

Pls lmk if im being helpful or js annoying i dont want to be a bother to you

 

[miserabletranny]

Thats good! Lwk ur lucky in my eyes, i hardly have access to anything besides a haircut.. sometimes what helps me if i dont feel masc enough is looking at other trans mens transitions, also i hope you get referred!! I hope one day i can get top surgery aswell, and then i could get a cool tattoo over my scars ! Yeah it sucks so much. Cis people have no clue how lucky they are... try not to think abt impossible things rn, maybe focus on the excitement of hopefully getting referred? Yeah estrogen sucks balls dude and not in a good way, i have a trans fem friend and we always joke abt switching bodies

Pls lmk if im being helpful or js annoying i dont want to be a bother to you

Are you able to diy t? I am currently and I wouldn't be on test without it. I wish cis people would understand but they never will. It frustrates me that they make all of our decisions.

Also you can't bother me, I don't do anything but rot online.

 

[stupid trans guy]

Not really atm, but im going to look into it more! yes omg like why does it matter if i dont want tits, or if another person does? Like its not like you have to donate to us, just leave us alone at the least

Me too

 

[miserabletranny]

Not really atm, but im going to look into it more! yes omg like why does it matter if i dont want tits, or if another person does? Like its not like you have to donate to us, just leave us alone at the least

Me too

Alright, I hope you're able to start test soon, no matter which route you take. Yeah, cis people are incredibly exhausting.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

I feel you from the deepest core of my senses I'm not a trans person but I'm a dark skin unattractive woman and the value I have to anyone is 0% there's nothing that will matter for me because I was born so different, with various skin condition my own family neglected me , abused me, called me dirty useless....

I Wish that we didn't have to suffer so much, so much for who we are truly, I wish we could live a life we always desired....in this world wishes and desires are like dream and I everyday think about that after we die we will experience our utmost desired and the ultimate peace. You are lovely as you are but the people and the society norms made us believe we are nothing.....but i will hope for a bright solution and find your own peace. Love, hugs and care to you my dear.

 

[stupid trans guy]

Thank you <3 and if you end up being able to get top surgery lmk how it goes!! I agree cya around hopefully! Its getting quite late over here

 

[miserabletranny]

I feel you from the deepest core of my senses I'm not a trans person but I'm a dark skin unattractive woman and the value I have to anyone is 0% there's nothing that will matter for me because I was born so different, with various skin condition my own family neglected me , abused me, called me dirty useless....

I Wish that we were didn't have to suffer so much, so much for who we are truly, I wish we could live a life we always desired....in this world wishes and desires are like dream and I everyday think about that after we will die we will experience our utmost desired and the ultimate peace. You are lovely as you are but the people and the society norms made us believe we are nothing.....but i will hope for a bright solution and find your own peace. Love, hugs and care to you my dear.

I'm so sorry, and thank you for replying and your kind words.

Thank you <3 and if you end up being able to get top surgery lmk how it goes!! I agree cya around hopefully! Its getting quite late over here

Will do, and night!

 

[fadedghost]

I've never posted before and am unfamiliar with sites like this, so I apologize if this is posted in the wrong place or it's formatted wrong.
I attempted last year by cutting my left wrist, and every day I wish it worked. I hate being alive. I'm a disgusting tranny, and I will never be a real man. Every day that I don't kill myself is putting off the inevitable. No parent ever wants their child to end up trans. Nothing about me is masculine. I'm 4'10 for fuck's sake. I hate myself, and I wish I died years ago, but especially wish I died last year when I tried to.

The best thing I will ever do in my life is commit suicide, because I'll give statisticians another number.

Are you able to move to an area that is more liberal with more trans people?

 

[miserabletranny]

Are you able to move to an area that is more liberal with more trans people?

I live in a blue state, I feel like an asshole for being so privileged and yet I feel like shit.

 

[fadedghost]

I live in a blue state, I feel like an asshole for being so privileged and yet I feel like shit.

You don't have to say which blue state, but there are certain cities where like it seems like 5-10 percent of the people are gender non-conforming or trans and if you live in a Blue state or Blue state area with fewer trans people, you may want to consider an even more liberal area. It could make a difference.