i wish i was special enough to be chosen

[GASLIGHTER7000]

the truth is, he is such a unique and interesting person. there's no one in the world like him. but i'm just any other girl- and i have issues that come with being with me. there's no benefit to choosing me. i hate how inferior i feel, and how sad inside i am... i want this feeling to go away. i just want to be together again, i want to be loved, and cared for. it's a selfish feeling- being forced to love someone like me is horrible. i just wish i was special, important, loveable. everyone in my life i've fallen in love with has left me one by one. i want someone to love me enough to stay forever.

 

[FadeAway00]

I struggled a lot with this for a long time. Once I stopped wasting my love on others and started focusing my love on myself I started to attract people in my life that loved me for me. Whether this was because I spent time working on myself, my hobbies, my health, etc. and it made me more confident subconsciously to others or that it put me in positions where I would be around folk of similar interests/values. All of this is, of course, easier said than done... and self-deprication is easy. Self-love takes hard, thankless work and I still struggle with it. Sending you lots of virtual hugs and here to chat if you need x