i wish i was special enough to be chosen

[GASLIGHTER7000]

the truth is, he is such a unique and interesting person. there's no one in the world like him. but i'm just any other girl- and i have issues that come with being with me. there's no benefit to choosing me. i hate how inferior i feel, and how sad inside i am... i want this feeling to go away. i just want to be together again, i want to be loved, and cared for. it's a selfish feeling- being forced to love someone like me is horrible. i just wish i was special, important, loveable. everyone in my life i've fallen in love with has left me one by one. i want someone to love me enough to stay forever.

 

[FadeAway00]

I struggled a lot with this for a long time. Once I stopped wasting my love on others and started focusing my love on myself I started to attract people in my life that loved me for me. Whether this was because I spent time working on myself, my hobbies, my health, etc. and it made me more confident subconsciously to others or that it put me in positions where I would be around folk of similar interests/values. All of this is, of course, easier said than done... and self-deprication is easy. Self-love takes hard, thankless work and I still struggle with it. Sending you lots of virtual hugs and here to chat if you need x

 

[4colliez]

Damn I feel every word of this lol. I recently realised that my ex never picked me first despite being in a long term relationship. Not before his friends, no before some other girl who was flirting with him. And now I'm thinking about how I'm just an option to all of my friends. How I'm not more special or loveable or prettier than every other girl out there. How no one will ever pick me first

Fwiw you seem like a sweet person who's been through a lot. Ik these are just words and how hard they can be to believe but there are good people out there that will appreciate you

 

[GASLIGHTER7000]

Damn I feel every word of this lol. I recently realised that my ex never picked me first despite being in a long term relationship. Not before his friends, no before some other girl who was flirting with him. And now I'm thinking about how I'm just an option to all of my friends. How I'm not more special or loveable or prettier than every other girl out there. How no one will ever pick me first

Fwiw you seem like a sweet person who's been through a lot. Ik these are just words and how hard they can be to believe but there are good people out there that will appreciate you

i appreciate that a lot. i wish being "chosen" wasn't such a need for me. i've thought about it and i think it comes from my childhood, where i was often excluded by my friends at a young age. it's traumatizing realizing that every single person i've gotten close to can leave me and not be affected. i'm not sure why, whether i'm a bad person, a disinteresting person, or just someone forgettable...

i hope i find someone who will stay by my side. and i hope you do too.

 

[buriedinmyhead]

I feel that <3. I have so much love to give, but I'm never chosen by anyone, it's honestly upsetting.