I wish I was normal

[fallingbehind]

I wish I was born normal. I wish I had wants, desires and dreams like everybody else. I wish I was smart, I wish I had drive. I wish I could understand what makes life so appealing to others. I desperately want to understand why other people can function normally and actually see the purpose in living.

This will never happen. It will always be difficult for me to wake up, I will always feel miserable doing anything. I will never be normal.

 

[kopebaldy]

"Normal" is a funny word.

To most, it's natural.

To some, it's a luxury.

To a few, it's impossible.

 

[Amile]

Same...
I wish I had been born as an actual human.
I only had one shot at life, and it was wasted on this creature.

 

[Holu]

Idek what normal means really. I feel like I've tried and failed enough to be normal. I'm sick of trying, I just want it all to end.

 

[mantis]

I understand how you feel. I guess what's "normal" is different for everyone. In a way, on this forum, you are normal.

 

[Andarna]

I understand that feeling.

I too would like to be normal, but unfortunately, I never was. Even as a child, I felt like something was wrong with me. I was never grateful for being here, for experiencing things, for existing. I could never imagine myself in a future where I had a normal, happy life. A future where I had a career, a partner, and children. I don't know why. I must have been born deficient.

I look with envy at the people around me, at how they cope and how they enjoy life.
Having a healthy mind must be great.

 

[unluckysadness]

I wish I was normal too (I mean : not being disabled). We are a lot here having the same thoughts.
Being different is okay to me. But suffering too much and feeling like an alien is not okay.
So many things I'd like to do, but that's impossible when you're disabled)
I think that life is either a lottery either a karma reaction

 

[princexhhn]

I relate so bad. Raising a glass to both of us and everyone else in these replies. I've been a whole jumble of mess since forever, always feeling a disconnect with others no matter how "close" I am with them. Alien invading planet earth. I always failed to understand how people can have dreams and a drive and a will to live, it was as if I was studying anthropology on my own species. It's part of why I want to study psychology— I want to understand because it just never happened for me like it did for everyone else. How strange it is to be anything at all

 

[Lions303]

Here you're not alone <3 I feel like we are all climbing out own mountains with our own weights and baggage. Who would of thought that having a dream is a dream in of itself

 

[30LoverForever]

I really get the same feeling. I didnt know theres others who feel the same
I hope I am able to be strong and brave enough to end my life soon as I never felt helpful to anyone in this life, not even to myself

 

[badatparties]

Ha, if most people are "normal" then count me out. Have you seen people these days, they all want to kill each other over politics. I feel like it takes an actual unconscious person to be happy in this shit hole. I feel like a lot of us are existentially depressed because we don't how how we got here, what were supposed to be doing, what happens after we die. We have absolutely no concrete road map for life and were surrounded by illogical violent apes. No one can agree on anything and were all constantly at each others throats. How can you not be fucking depressed?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think the idea itself is interesting. I tend to wonder how many people feel different to others. I've certainly felt that I was abnormal in the past. Now, I'm not sure. I think maybe everyone struggles with something.

I suppose according to your description, I started out more 'normal'. Although, I'd tend to think my very intense drive came about as a coping mechanism. Because my life was so abnormal. My experience was the other way though. My drive/ ambition was so intense that my whole life became maladjustedly about work. Now that drive has gone, there's nothing. Just the obligations I've saddled myself with.

Definitely earlier on though, ambition dragged me through. I do feel bad for those who have no interests or likes to guide them. Do you truly enjoy nothing?

I'd suggest that a lot of people struggle to get out of bed though! Whether or not they have drive or belief in what they're doing. They probably do it more so they can avoid getting sacked and keep paying the bills.

 

[58Alice85]

This world is diseased. I dont want to be a normie at all.