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wristcutangel

wristcutangel

What value is there to a life that wants to end?
Jul 5, 2023
167
simple as the title. i've completely lost the energy to even say more, everything in my life has made me lose hope. there's no more reason to live, i hope i never have to wake up again.
 
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アホペンギン

アホペンギン

Jul 10, 2023
2,191
We are all in the same shoes as you. All we can do is hope that it turns out to be the truth, we don't wake up ever again.
 
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MyChoiceAlone

MyChoiceAlone

sleep deprived and/or drunk
Jul 23, 2023
1,230
wish i could fall asleep in the first place
 
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day

Global Mod
Jun 24, 2023
652
Sleep is one of the closest phenomena's to being dead or not existing that we can experience. I enjoy being caught in that black in between where I actually feel at peace. Sadly everyday I'm forced to continue living and that'll persist till I can finally CTB.
 
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アホペンギン

アホペンギン

Jul 10, 2023
2,191
Sleep is one of the closest phenomena's to being dead or not existing that we can experience. I enjoy being caught in that black in between where I actually feel at peace. Sadly everyday I'm forced to continue living and that'll persist till I can finally CTB.
You are very right, experiencing sleep is one of the closest things to what death will feel like, in my opinion I have felt it before, or at least something similar to it and I can guarantee you that it feels amazing. Its a great way to escape the daily problems that we have to face while being alive.
 
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Gaga786

Gaga786

The Odds Are Never In My favour
May 3, 2020
470
Same. Each day is dreadful, and it only gets worse as time goes on. I hope you find the inner peace you yearn
 
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XenoPyo

XenoPyo

눈을 감자
Aug 16, 2023
47
Exactly how I feel each morning and night.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,833
Never waking again is also what sounds ideal to me, a peaceful, eternal and dreamless sleep free from all harm is all I've ever wished for. I see beauty in permanent nothingness, it's so horrible how we cannot just choose to never wake again and are instead trapped in this existence we were cruelly burdened with where there is no straightforward way to be free.
 
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stage4johnny

Member
Jun 22, 2023
65
I love sleeping, I hate life,I just wish I had the method and the courage to ctb.
 
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Shatteredhearts824

Shatteredhearts824

It doesn't get better.
Aug 8, 2023
19
Same here, man. I've just about had it with life. For me, life is a neverending cycle of torture and suffering followed by heartbreak
 
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Lammpz

Lammpz

You
Oct 16, 2022
27
Sleeping is death greeting you
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,321
Waking up is hell. I always say , fuck im still here.
 
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Yiyo123

Member
Apr 24, 2020
94
I lost hope and the will to live a long time ago. I have my reasons for not CTB at the moment. Everyday Is a struggle… I feel empty, guilty and physically and emotionally unstable. I'm simply tired of everything and everyone. Me too wish the same thing every night… never wake up. But I'm still here and it hurts.
 
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Aloneisbestforme

Aloneisbestforme

Terminally online
Aug 17, 2023
94
Yep i feel that one.

So many things in life that just make it hell living and it's just soul draining and the idea of sleeping and never waking up is so peaceful to me.
you just go to sleep and than you have forever peace without putting all this effort into trying to ctb. it's such a relaxing thought
 
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Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
damn it, I also want to fall asleep and not wake up - every day this damn alarm clock rings and a nightmare begins. Almost all people are lonely because of loneliness, but I understand that I will have to meet some man today because I need money. People think that I work as an escort because I'm a whore, but I just can't find another job with the same income. I hate my job. Although my clients are good, handsome rich men, but no one knows how much I hate them.
 
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enough of this

Arcanist
Jun 4, 2023
432
simple as the title. i've completely lost the energy to even say more, everything in my life has made me lose hope. there's no more reason to live, i hope i never have to wake up again.
I feel that way quite often. I pray every night I die in my sleep. 🙏
 

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