Venting I wish I lived in America...

[KillingPain267]

I would have bought a gun the first moment I had my first serious suicidal thought, over a year ago, after divorce, and just pulled the trigger then. I have no idea how I lasted this long... it's impossible. I guess thanks to opioids and booze numbing my feelings, seperatelively. Serously, FUCK my feelings! I wish to obliberate the emotional part of my medulla oblongata.

I know it is stupid and vain, but the fact that my spouse decided to leave me despite promising life-long love (about a year ago), is killing me inside, and I don't know how to recover.

I want this social experiment to end! Please, Matrix, let my conscience end NOW, please! I'm sorry, Matrix, though... Do whatever you find entertaining for yourself...

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

There's only one way out of the Matrix.

 

[theboy]

We all living in Amerika

 

[Worndown]

I think too many swallowed the red pill in November.
Now we have more to worry about than a wayward black cat.

 

[living4others]

I would have bought a gun the first moment I had my first serious suicidal thought, over a year ago, after divorce, and just pulled the trigger then. I have no idea how I lasted this long... it's impossible. I guess thanks to opioids and booze numbing my feelings, seperatelively. Serously, FUCK my feelings! I wish to obliberate the emotional part of my medulla oblongata.

I know it is stupid and vain, but the fact that my spouse decided to leave me despite promising life-long love (about a year ago), is killing me inside, and I don't know how to recover.

I want this social experiment to end! Please, Matrix, let my conscience end NOW, please! I'm sorry, Matrix, though... Do whatever you find entertaining for yourself...

I wish i lived in the usa too. Firearm would be my no. 1 choice.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

Note that if you were ever put in an involuntary psychiatric hold in the US you're banned from buying firearms, so a lot of suicidal people can't buy a gun.

 

[Confusedsoul12345]

Grass is always greener on other side.I live in USA as an immigrant but I always wish I was living in some other country like India where SN and AE are easily available or better in South American country where N is available.

Even though I live in USA

1.can not access firearm( not a US citizen)
2.In all these years I have never visited any doctor so prescription medicine are out of question for me.
3.I can't even drive and I do not have enough capacity for inert gas setup.
4.Never had contact with shady people or done anything illegal so illegal drugs are also not an option for me