I wish I had someone who supported me CTBing

[bluville]

Ik its way too much to ask, but I really wish I just had someone who was understand as to why dying is my best option and still supported me. People will only support you if it means you suffer through life and save them from grief or whatever it is. It wouldn't change anything, I'd me gone either way in the end. But it's nice to still have some type of hope at rock bottom I guess.

 

[sadToast]

i was a supportive friend of someone who ctb and i think it was reassuring. we had been friends for only 5 years but i understood his situation at home & the great lengths he went to to find a shred of hope in life before ctb. what you're asking for isnt too much, to me it even feels like the bare minimum considering circumstances. if you cant find a reason to go on and you feel miserable everyday having someone provide the comfort and reassurance that you are loved despite how the world has treated you is maybe one of the nicest things before ctb

 

[HarmonicScreams]

I don't know you or your circumstances, but I believe you know yourself best. There are reasonable times to CTB and only we can determine when our time to leave is. So... From afar, I support whatever choose. I wish we lived in a more forgiving world...

 

[leavingsoon99]

That's why I joined this forum. I don't want 'hope' blown up my ass. I want someone to talk with me through this. I don't want to live.

 

[hellispink]

I wish it wasn't this lonely. I really did.

btw nice ayaka

 

[TAW122]

I wished the same thing too IRL, but most if not almost everyone I interact with are pro-life (even if they aren't vocal, but their sentiments and disposition reeks of pro-life sentiments). I also cannot risk intervention and interference, therefore, I will (sadly) have take this road solitary myself. The one thing though is that this community respects my decision whether it is to continue living or ending my suffering, and to me, that is solace in and of itself whenever my final days arrive in the future.

 

[glitterypearls]

because it's a weird area. supporting someone on that is scary when it comes to the legal aspect of it. society just views it wrong and ethically I don't know if I'm okay with it, this is why I even stopped commenting on goodbye threads. It take 1 angry "loved ones" to make me hate living even more, to make me regret even commenting or supporting the person. it's sad we have to worry about that but this is the reality.

- online. you might see your username in a twitter thread or a website and possibly be doxxed by the "grieving mother"
- RL. you will be dragged by the "grieving family" spreading your messages to that person online and opening an investigation

you would be shocked how far those families would go, I don't think anyone suicidal would want to subject themselves to this even if they REALLY want to support you. so this is why it's almost impossible to find someone willing to support you on this RL or online.

 

[bluville]

because it's a weird area. supporting someone on that is scary when it comes to the legal aspect of it. society just views it wrong and ethically I don't know if I'm okay with it, this is why I even stopped commenting on goodbye threads. It take 1 angry "loved ones" to make me hate living even more, to make me regret even commenting or supporting the person. it's sad we have to worry about that but this is the reality.

- online. you might see your username in a twitter thread or a website and possibly be doxxed by the "grieving mother"
- RL. you will be dragged by the "grieving family" spreading your messages to that person online and opening an investigation

you would be shocked how far those families would go, I don't think anyone suicidal would want to subject themselves to this even if they REALLY want to support you. so this is why it's almost impossible to find someone willing to support you on this RL or online

Yeah, 100% I've considered this but it feels like regardless on if legality were involved most people are too selfish to want to keep a loved one around even if they are suffering. Everytime victims of suicide talk about grieving its usually how its effected them and not what the other person went through. Which isn't unreasonable when grieving but yeah, i think most people would rather their loved one suffer for the rest of their life than CTB.

 

[rêve]

I wish you the best and my utmost support for your next choices. If you need emotional support, contact me. It will be my pleasure to help you go through what you are living. Have a nice night!

 

[starlover]

Yeah, 100% I've considered this but it feels like regardless on if legality were involved most people are too selfish to want to keep a loved one around even if they are suffering. Everytime victims of suicide talk about grieving its usually how its effected them and not what the other person went through. Which isn't unreasonable when grieving but yeah, i think most people would rather their loved one suffer for the rest of their life than CTB.

Yeah...

I told a loved one I was suicidal and felt trapped. They said "you're right, you are. you're not allowed to die."

Their loved one had committed suicide. I understand why they said that, but it didn't help with the "I want to die and feel forced to live" problem.

Ik its way too much to ask, but I really wish I just had someone who was understand as to why dying is my best option and still supported me. People will only support you if it means you suffer through life and save them from grief or whatever it is. It wouldn't change anything, I'd me gone either way in the end. But it's nice to still have some type of hope at rock bottom I guess.

Yeah. I get it.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's unfortunate how we exist in a world where there is a lack of acceptance towards the right to die but sadly it's just the reality of existing here. I guess that for many people being suicidal certainly can be very lonely, but to me it's always a terrible idea being so open about plans/wishes to die as it's unlikely to get the support of other people and instead it could very likely just make things worse. Many people in this world are in denail of the fact that wanting to die is a perfectly logical option and that's just the way that things are.

 

[starlover]

To me it's unfortunate how we exist in a world where there is a lack of acceptance towards the right to die but sadly it's just the reality of existing here. I guess that for many people being suicidal certainly can be very lonely, but to me it's always a terrible idea being so open about plans/wishes to die as it's unlikely to get the support of other people and instead it could very likely just make things worse. Many people in this world are in denail of the fact that wanting to die is a perfectly logical option and that's just the way that things are.

Agreed. Glad this forum exists, probably the best one can hope for right now.

Won't be bringing it up with loved ones anymore myself. Learned my lesson.

 

[yukan]

i had someone like this once. but after circumstances changed, they got better and left me here still wanting to ctb. honestly good for them but i wish i didn't build our friendship on how we both wanted to die in the first place. so i understand how lonely it can be and i agree it's nice to have comfort and support whether or not you decide to ctb

also cute ayaka pfp