sosicklywrong
StarsReacher
- Dec 3, 2024
- 2
I'm a woman, I'm 23 years old and I have screwed up my own life and there's no way out.
I have asperger and developed BPD since I was 12, so I'm medicated with antipsychotics since that age.
I have been bullied all my childhood and teenage years. I don't have friends since I was 17 years old because most of them did terrible things to me.
The worst year of my life was 2018, I attempted to end my life for the first time and I lost all my friends because of a manipulative girl.
Later years I started dating and no boyfriend would last more than a month with me, they all left me, and everyone would say I was a "whore" just because I dated these many people.
the worst part is I'm a viral girl on Internet, there are pictures of me naked, and I'm constantly being stalked in fucked up ways.
I studied to be an Arts Teacher, I'm about to finish the career, but a stalker is constantly ruining my life by entering facebook groups and pages of my local city and sending stuff about me.
I honestly know it is all my fault... but the only reason I keep moving on is my boyfriend, because after him I'm totally alone in this world. But he's always in doubt about leaving me.
He feels hurt because the stalkers interfere in our lifes constantly and I always answer them instead of ignoring because I think deep inside me it's a way of self destructive behavior.
I'm inconsiderate, I'm stupid, I'm a horrible monster to my loved ones.
Everyone would feel relief if i didn't exist.
I have asperger and developed BPD since I was 12, so I'm medicated with antipsychotics since that age.
I have been bullied all my childhood and teenage years. I don't have friends since I was 17 years old because most of them did terrible things to me.
The worst year of my life was 2018, I attempted to end my life for the first time and I lost all my friends because of a manipulative girl.
Later years I started dating and no boyfriend would last more than a month with me, they all left me, and everyone would say I was a "whore" just because I dated these many people.
the worst part is I'm a viral girl on Internet, there are pictures of me naked, and I'm constantly being stalked in fucked up ways.
I studied to be an Arts Teacher, I'm about to finish the career, but a stalker is constantly ruining my life by entering facebook groups and pages of my local city and sending stuff about me.
I honestly know it is all my fault... but the only reason I keep moving on is my boyfriend, because after him I'm totally alone in this world. But he's always in doubt about leaving me.
He feels hurt because the stalkers interfere in our lifes constantly and I always answer them instead of ignoring because I think deep inside me it's a way of self destructive behavior.
I'm inconsiderate, I'm stupid, I'm a horrible monster to my loved ones.
Everyone would feel relief if i didn't exist.
