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myownpetvirus

21st Century Lobotomy
Dec 29, 2022
230
God I would do it in a heartbeat so I can feel good about myself on the way out. I'll take all the pain and suffering too I don't even care
 
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stermc

stermc

libertas quae sera tamen
Nov 24, 2022
946
I always think of that. So many people leaving this world wanting to live while we just want to go and… nothing happens to us

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myownpetvirus

21st Century Lobotomy
Dec 29, 2022
230
Why can't we trade
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Illuminated
Mar 21, 2019
3,671
Unfortunately we are not allowed a trade. For you, if you must go, more tolerable options are available.
 
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fuzzy-clown

Experienced
Nov 27, 2022
227
I wish we could arrange to have all of our organs donated.
How nice it would be if we could walk into a hospital and say "Hi! I'd like to donate all my organs" and everyone says nice things to you while they put you under general anaesthesia and you never wake up again.

One can dream.
 
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wantittoendsoon

Experienced
Dec 11, 2022
248
I'd would do it in a second, Too bad I can't give you my Terminal cancer. I would hope for you to CTB right away as it is a daily hell.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,140
Yeah, I've had this thought specifically about someone. One of my managers had cancer. She was so lovely and a Mum. My Mum actually died of cancer when I was 3. I just think it's such a waste. She wanted to carry on living and I don't. I wish my death could be more worthy- if I could save someone else with it. Still- there we go- life's unfair.

The way assisted suicide is so restricted also likely means that a lot of our organs will go to waste too in the DIY approach- whereas we could have helped people that way if only we could have CTB in a clinic.
 
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vultureilse

vultureilse

ready to go, just waiting for the right time!
Dec 31, 2022
144
same i think about this so much. i hate how unfair life is. i hate that things like terminal illnesses and accidental deaths happen to people who dont want to die but im still here. i wish i could give my life to someone who actually wants to live, thatd be one of the most ideal ways of dying for me. i wouldnt even care if i had to suffer in the process id be so happy to switch places with someone like that
Yeah, I've had this thought specifically about someone. One of my managers had cancer. She was so lovely and a Mum. My Mum actually died of cancer when I was 3. I just think it's such a waste. She wanted to carry on living and I don't. I wish my death could be more worthy- if I could save someone else with it. Still- there we go- life's unfair.

The way assisted suicide is so restricted also likely means that a lot of our organs will go to waste too in the DIY approach- whereas we could have helped people that way if only we could have CTB in a clinic.
yeah i really wish i could donate my organs it makes me so sad that i cant:( theres so many people waiting for transplants i wish i was able to help someone this way. such a shame thats not possible

cant give away my organs so im planning on at least donating blood before i die cause theres really not much else i could do though im not sure if im even eligible for that
 
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WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,431
Same since at least my CTB would be a little more understandable to my family.
 
Szinuus

Szinuus

I see the bus...I can almost see it
Aug 19, 2022
211
I wouldnt want that. Cancer is fuckin painful disease.
 
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don't want it

Member
Dec 14, 2022
99
I don't want my body take it
 
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hiddenbpd

✌🏼
Oct 19, 2022
200
Same here. I went to a funeral of someone who died of cancer and seeing everyone cry and mourn made me see how many people loved them, but not me. So many people would kill for the life I have, yet I can't be grateful.
 
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AloneInCollege

AloneInCollege

The one and only
Mar 7, 2022
167
I'm a cancer survivor. Every day I wish I was a cancer loss lol. I know how you feel.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,338
After all, there is simply nothing fair about any of this and it does seem as though it's those who wish to live who end up with a terminal illness rather than suicidal people. I think that those who are dying from some kind of illness are fortunate as they don't have to find a way to leave themselves in a world that stigmatises suicide and makes it as difficult as possible for us to access methods, with many methods having the risk of failure. They just have to wait to die and at least they know that what they are going through will soon end.
 
KuriGohan&Kamehameha

KuriGohan&Kamehameha

想死不能 - 想活不能
Nov 23, 2020
1,803
We should be careful what we wish for, I ended up having 3 benign tumors on my ovary, one of which was greater than 15 centimeters in size. It was absolute agony and I had to undergo a very long surgery to remove the tumors and biopsy them for cancer. So many blood tests too before the surgery, because they feared cancer.

I didn't want to do any of this, but because it was likely benign and secreting fluid, I had no choice but to have surgery, because I would have died slowly and painfully from sepsis otherwise, and would have received life-saving medical care against my will if I got to that state. I have already decided that if I get another tumor or develop ovarian cancer, I will not go through this bullshit again. I don't want to live, but wasn't given a choice in that situation.

The tests, treatments, etc associated with cancer and ruling out other conditions are awful. The pain if you have tumors is awful. Having surgery is awful. I wouldn't wish ailments like cancer on my worst enemy. But I completely understand wanting to take away someone else's pain, because it is very tragic when someone who wants to live is robbed of the opportunity to survive, by the cruelty of random chance, and the absurdity of nature which allows such devastating illnesses and conditions to occur.
 
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Escapee

Student
Jan 14, 2023
163
I always think of that. So many people leaving this world wanting to live while we just want to go and… nothing happens to us

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Same feeling. many people are terrified of death I am terrified of waking tomorrow.
I wish we could arrange to have all of our organs donated.
How nice it would be if we could walk into a hospital and say "Hi! I'd like to donate all my organs" and everyone says nice things to you while they put you under general anaesthesia and you never wake up again.

One can dream.
The very same thing I have been thinking for a week. I wish that will become possible one day it will be a win win for both
 
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SamTam33

Warlock
Oct 9, 2022
763
It's one of my top fantasies. Every time I feel a pain, I say "I hope it's cancer" and I swear it immediately stops hurting.

The universes refuses to let me be even a little bit hopeful.
 
MidnightCat

MidnightCat

Still 3 more lives to go.
Jan 1, 2023
313
God I would do it in a heartbeat so I can feel good about myself on the way out. I'll take all the pain and suffering too I don't even care
I do think about this A LOT. Life's not fair.

I wish we could arrange to have all of our organs donated.
How nice it would be if we could walk into a hospital and say "Hi! I'd like to donate all my organs" and everyone says nice things to you while they put you under general anaesthesia and you never wake up again.

One can dream.
Actually, not so long ago I went to my doctor and talked to her about this thing.

Asked to get euthanasia as my method (SN) will probably destroy most of my organs and would make me happy to help people with them and die peacefully.

Unfortunately, althought euthanasia is legal in my country, she just redirected me to ER.
 
Rainy_days

Rainy_days

Experienced
Dec 21, 2022
256
Cancer seems pretty horrific but I sometimes wish I could give my Dad or cat their youth back in exchange for whats left of mine.
 
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myownpetvirus

21st Century Lobotomy
Dec 29, 2022
230
Cancer seems pretty horrific but I sometimes wish I could give my Dad or cat their youth back in exchange for whats left of mine.
Imagine if one day they find a way to live forever and suicide is still banned.
 
WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,716
I'd think rather have a brain aneurysm take me out. I already have painful illnesses that have ruined my life and cancer deaths looks absolutely awful.
 
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myownpetvirus

21st Century Lobotomy
Dec 29, 2022
230
I'd think rather have a brain aneurysm take me out. I already have painful illnesses that have ruined my life and cancer deaths looks absolutely awful.
I can endure 6 months to a year of physical torture no problem
 
Mlee75

Mlee75

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Jan 2, 2023
67
God I would do it in a heartbeat so I can feel good about myself on the way out. I'll take all the pain and suffering too I don't even care
It is such a shame that our lives can't be gifted to someone who would appreciate them but, it is what it is. I volunteer and work for a charity in the meantime. Trying to make the life I do not appreciate useful to someone else. Until it is your time, maybe you want to do something like that? It's totally self-serving, it feels good.
 

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