Venting I wish I could die so fucking bad I can’t imagine living the rest of my life like this

[LXR515]

If I have to go 1 more year, let alone decades of being in this miserable fucking mind and decaying body I genuinely can't fucking handle this shit.
I wish I had the balls to put a knife through my neck when I was 15 when I started feeling like this
My past and choices I've made are gonna forever haunt me
And none of my close friends or family know about this until I finally have a bullet in my head
I hope dying is easy

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm feeling this too. I'm so sorry. I pretty much panic when I wonder how much longer I'm going to have to keep going (waiting for my Dad to go first) and how I'm going to have to sustain myself (especially financially) through it.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

Same, the idea of death is so appealing to me right now I could get high off that thought. Hopefully I won't be here for long

 

[niki wonoto]

same here (from Indonesia, 42/M)

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand finding it so torturous and unbearable to exist, the fact that a human can suffer for so long is just so horrific to me personally, I just wish to be free from it all as well, it sounds like you've suffered a lot, I hope you find the freedom you search for.