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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
284
Give me the strength to do it.
I have belly problems all the time so I believe it will hurt a lot but I don't know what to do with my skin.
 
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Dawnfang

Dawnfang

Fate calls to us all
Dec 21, 2025
115
Can I ask about your "protocol" if you don't mind?

Wishing you peace. Safe travels
 
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Nat.

Nat.

Member
Aug 28, 2026
57
I hope that everything goes as peacefully as possible, and that whatever you do, you may find what you need.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,588
I hope you find peace. Good luck :heart:
 
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rembleeds

Member
Feb 12, 2024
38
I don't know. I took the pain killers and Antiaci.
I can't believe I am doing this. I feel super anxious and i will maybe have a panic attack.
There's no shame in not being ready. There's also no shame in being scared of the end. Take some breaths and try to clear your head.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,206
If you're not ready today, you can wait until you are. I hope you find peace when the time is right šŸ•Šļø.
 
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dirkw83

Experienced
Mar 4, 2026
261
Hello, if you dont'wanna do it then please don't do it. There can be another day, take care.
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
284
After a zip i vomit like 5mn after. Try to take it all night but couldn't.
Didn't sleep still have to do it.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Visionary
Nov 12, 2025
2,206
Ugh, sorry to hear that. Can you wait until you have your ae? I know it can work without it, but maybe that would give you more peace of mind that it'll go as smoothly as possible.
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
284
Ugh, sorry to hear that. Can you wait until you have your ae? I know it can work without it, but maybe that would give you more peace of mind that it'll go as smoothly as possible.
No I can't get them anyway. I will vomit even with them.
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
284
I would think so, too.
The act suicide is terrible.
How much pain are withing us to make that horrible experience the last thing.
Fuck me, what a waste of beauty.
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
284
I felt crazy. I was drinking it while crying and yelling and now I am in the subway with thousands of people and I have to act normal.

That feel absurd
 
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cowlover1252

cowlover1252

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Aug 21, 2026
68
did you take any anti emetic?
 

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