Venting I will never be the same as I was before I knew this forum.

[Unknown21]

This forum showed me the other side of the world, it showed me things I was ignorant of my whole life, it showed me how people suffer greatly in this world and that it is possible to suffer your whole life without hope. Showed me how injustice or life can be unfair to one person in everything and give everything to another person. It made me open my eyes to the subject of suicide and how difficult it is in this world and how society wants to make it harder and how it is something complicated and not what I thought. I saw a lot of people here suffer and die by suicide. I realized then how ugly this world is when I befriended people here who ctbed because they were facing hopeless, intractable problems that they didn't choose in the first place. I knew how it was possible to be imprisoned with no way out peacefully and unable to exercise your human right to die.

It made me realize that I could object to my fate and not accept my life or be forced to live it, and that I could leave and end it because this is my human right. I am really grateful for this.

Realizing how ugly the world is made me not want to live. Even if my life circumstances improved, I would not be as happy because I would not be happy with this amount of suffering in this world happening to other people. I really hate this world and the injustice that happens in it.

This life is so depressing even without personal problems in general this existence is painful.
Now all that's left for me is death to get rid of my problems and of existence in this world as a whole.
I am grateful to this place because it showed me the truth, even though the truth is dark and depressing, and because it made me free to exercise my right to die and to speak freely about what is on my mind.

 

[neenie]

Although positive events do not 'cancel out' negative events, please bear in mind that the positive and beautiful things of the world are also part of the truth :) Anyway I wish you the best and hope you'll make the best life (or death) for yourself with all the information you've been able to gather

 

[EmptyBottle]

Although positive events do not 'cancel out' negative events, please bear in mind that the positive and beautiful things of the world are also part of the truth :) Anyway I wish you the best and hope you'll make the best life (or death) for yourself with all the information you've been able to gather

And even the neutral events too. What makes the news is usually stuff that doesn't happen too often (eg: the chances of being featured in the news is low).

When COVID-19 arrived, the news channels I occasionally watch ran a bit low on regular stories and featured positive and simpler stories, it was nice to see the change.

YouTube in private browsing can change what the feed sees, and channels like Kurzgesart, Astrum, and similar ones can show a more balanced and interesting side to the world. I don't use Instagram and TikTok much, coz they feel too cliché.

Spoiler: random note

I used the AltGr and e key for the é (had to set it up from Keyboard Settings, should work on Linux and windows)

 

[notreallyhuman]

I hope this doesn't come across as invalidating to how you feel and to the things you've seen on here, that isn't my intention. But when people come to this site, it's because they've been having dark thoughts and feeling low and want to speak about what's hurting them and making them consider their final decision. It's not a place people come to share happy memories and positivity and joy…

Just because someone on here makes a lot of posts to make it seem like their life has always only ever been awful with all pain and suffering and no hope, that doesn't mean it's true. It's just that this is seen as an outlet for negatively and pain for many people and shared negative experiences and dark thoughts. It doesn't mean their entire life has been awful and they haven't felt joy or love or hope, just that you won't hear about it on a website like this. That even applies to those who were successful and no longer with us. Yes their pain was great but that doesn't mean their entire life was all pointless, hopeless, negative.

I hope this isn't taken the wrong way I'm truly only saying this to hope you will consider the other perspective and make you feel better. This site is certainly controversial but for those of us who use it I think we want to be free to talk openly and connect with the like-minded. Therefore, we speak about the worst things we have ever felt, done, and had happen to us. If it's making your mental health worse and making you feel like life is only pointless and unfair, maybe it's time to take a break and consume some more positive content for your health. Especially as many of us here feel we must make an irreversible decision, if you feel that this website in particular is pushing you to commit that act without being fully thought through or considering all angles, it may be best to step back.