I will commit suicide soon

[here_for_now]

Today was the last straw I went to the ER begging them to take my health seriously I came in because I had hemorrhoids and anal fissure cut open up and it was very painful not only did they not prescribe me any medication to go home to actually help with this they decided to call in security guards to beat me up and tackle me and put me in extremely more pain and since I suffer from a disability that gets worse if you exert yourself I'd assume that getting beat up it's going to exert myself so I'm f***** in the next three days I'm going to have a post-exertional malaise crash which means if you're not familiar with CFS I'm f***** I realized today that I don't care if killing myself will make my brother sad because if you really loved me he would he would love that I'm free now he would love that I'm free from CFS from long covid from disability from getting followed everywhere by the government and psychologically tortured by the government and all the disinformation bots on the commons can say I have psychosis or whatever I don't blame you but that's the trick you know but I realized that suicide is the answer and suicide will only be the answer and hopefully this will be my last post on my lurk you around but this is my last post I will lurk around and then eventually I'll just be offline forever love you goodbye