Venting I want to split open my arms

[venua]

I want to split open my arms. Clean from elbow to wrist. & yet I can't. I promised I wouldn't and so I won't. But oh god its hard. I just wanna feel something. Anything. I hate it. I'm so tired & yet no amount of sleep fixes it. My body isn't in control of my mind & vice versa. Nothing feels or is real. Everyone I know is fake & I'm tired of everyone I know. No matter who I use to fill this gaping void of loneliness. I always end up loosing interest. I will never feel true love because to me it is not real.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be awful and tiring feeling trapped in that situation, temporary sleep could never make me not tired as well, existence really is just too cruel. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[venua]

It must be awful and tiring feeling trapped in that situation, temporary sleep could never make me not tired as well, existence really is just too cruel. But anyway I wish you the best.

Thank you for your kind words.

 

[acerace]

Basically how I feel I told myself I would slit my neck open, I keep fantasizing at it and telling myself that the pain can't be that bad. But at the end of the day I can't even get myself to do it. I hate it here.

 

[hellispink]

Me too. I wish i could destroy myself. But i know its not worth it. What i need is to leave.