I want to slit my wrists so bad

[pleaseletmeperish]

Not as a suicide attempt but to make some of this despair go away. I used to cut so the physical pain would overshadow the mental pain. The latter would kinda fade away

But I am old and tired enough to realize it will only draw attention to my suicidality. Can't risk any impediment to my plans. So I have to sit with this pain.

Please pray my passing, whenever that may be, will be less painful.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I'm really sorry you are in so much pain. I fully understand you. Cutting actually alleviates emotinal suffering. I have done several times and stopped after I found opioid abuse is more effective, finally managed to stop opioids as well. Scars won't disappear.

Is there something that helps you cope with life right now? You can vent your feelings here to avoid developing maladaptive coping mechanisms as much as you want. Whatever decision you finally take, I hope you find your peace.