
HowSoonIsNow
" Oh, She was a victim of sweet suicide"
- Feb 2, 2020
- 162
I'm not catching rhe bus yet but I wanted to share my letter and hear your thoughts
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I tried to write this letter several times but it never seemed sincere.If I posted it I already drank a very lethal substance and I'll be dead in a couple of minutes, don't worry,I didn't suffered.
My beloved friends, don't look for answers or a reason. I've battling against BPD for several years, and, when I came home from the psych ward after almost a month, I knew that it could not get better than this.
I tried, I tried to improve myself, to find a job and all the things that normal people do...I tried, but instead, I've became bitter and angry, sometimes I can't recognize myself and I'm afraid of what I can became in the future.
This world, it wasn't made for people like me, people who feel too much. Love hurts, the euphoria is just too much, the sadness is unbearable and happiness...I don't remember of her, will she finds me?
Please don't blame yourselves for "not being there" It was my choice, you couldn't save me because I didn't wanted to be saved. I lost this battle and I'm not a bad loser.
I'd like to say thank you,for sharing things with me, for being my friend. I'll always love you.
Much love
( My initials)"
"
I tried to write this letter several times but it never seemed sincere.If I posted it I already drank a very lethal substance and I'll be dead in a couple of minutes, don't worry,I didn't suffered.
My beloved friends, don't look for answers or a reason. I've battling against BPD for several years, and, when I came home from the psych ward after almost a month, I knew that it could not get better than this.
I tried, I tried to improve myself, to find a job and all the things that normal people do...I tried, but instead, I've became bitter and angry, sometimes I can't recognize myself and I'm afraid of what I can became in the future.
This world, it wasn't made for people like me, people who feel too much. Love hurts, the euphoria is just too much, the sadness is unbearable and happiness...I don't remember of her, will she finds me?
Please don't blame yourselves for "not being there" It was my choice, you couldn't save me because I didn't wanted to be saved. I lost this battle and I'm not a bad loser.
I'd like to say thank you,for sharing things with me, for being my friend. I'll always love you.
Much love
( My initials)"