HollowSoul
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- Apr 14, 2026
- 6
Before knowing about this forum, I was so sure I wanted to ctb, and i really thought if I found the right method for me I would be at ease... But no, It made my anxiety skyrocket like never before, I suppose because for once It become too real of a possibility
You know, Im in a really bad place right now, i cant find a job, im 31 and still living with my parents and everyday that It goes I feel like im living like a zombie but on the other hands, my parents are extremely nice to me, they never lose hope and i have like a very wonderful small group of friends who are too on the same page as me (so i dont feel too much like a loser with them) they're always try to help as much as they can...
So deep down I dont want to ctb, but I feel i will never have a proper job and a proper salary to live my own life and i feel like time is running out for me...its very very hard to be optimistic
Idk just wanted to vent a little :(
You know, Im in a really bad place right now, i cant find a job, im 31 and still living with my parents and everyday that It goes I feel like im living like a zombie but on the other hands, my parents are extremely nice to me, they never lose hope and i have like a very wonderful small group of friends who are too on the same page as me (so i dont feel too much like a loser with them) they're always try to help as much as they can...
So deep down I dont want to ctb, but I feel i will never have a proper job and a proper salary to live my own life and i feel like time is running out for me...its very very hard to be optimistic
Idk just wanted to vent a little :(
