Hey don't beat yourself up. Every method is described as accurate as possible if you have any questions you can post it on the method megathread or create a new thread asking for help. Surely someone will clear any questions you may have.
Living things don't die easily. Research and weight the positive against the potential negative of every method. When you settle on one, test it to be sure to every extent you can end it that way. Then build up to where it's possible for you to complete. Do not attempt if you are intoxicated as that is failure for sure in most cases and makes a suicide attempt into a suicidal gesture. If you want attention seek help. If you want to end it be sure.
I want to go too.
Told my doctor I want to go.
She asked why I haven't done it yet,
I told her I can't find a humane way of doing it.
She didn't bat an eyelid.
My humane ways are getting harder and harder to get hold of.
I'm waiting for something to push me over the edge, and I don't mean that metaphorically either. When I've finally lost my shit...I'll jump.