Venting I dont want to settle for being content

[Decayed]

ok so every time i tell someone I'm still feeling depressed even though i seem happy sometimes they say "well your not going to be happy all the time" or "everyone is depressed sometimes but you need to stay for the good times" but the issues is that the "good times" are so fleeting it feels like there is no point in having them and it seems like everyone else just has lower standards as to what is good. that my thoughts of a life worth living is simply not one that can realistically be achieved, that the fact is that i just need to settle for a life where i feel this unbearable sadness and fleeting happiness cause that is the norm

what I'm trying to say is that even a recovered life is a depressing life for me so is it so wrong to want to opt out of it. to want the autonomy to choose what is best for me even if it upsets some people.

 

[Hollowman]

It's not so wrong at all.

 

[Rynalia]

They tell you to "reach for the stars" as a kid, then tell you to "settle for less" as an adult.

Fuck that.

Being content is not living. That's just existing. Surviving, maybe.

I'm not keen on just surviving. I want to actually live.

But too bad that's not possible, so out we go.

 

[Anonymousa]

Yea, to me its invalidating when people say that as why is my opinion on what a good life is be wrong? I don't want to stay if these good moments aren't worth it for me to deal with bad moments, why isn't that a valid mindset to have? I hate humans who force this need to live and to suffer on others.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think we ought to be able to set our own standards. We're the ones having to live our lives, not anyone else. Great- if it would suit someone else. I'd give them my life if I could. I also agree that for me, even a fully recovered life looks like it would be brimming with problems still.