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sadclown666

sadclown666

suicidal emo girl
Apr 23, 2023
32
Im not ok, im not gonna go over my whole story.

I was already on this website trying to find a way out before the trauma in my life happened that has made my life more unbearable then it ever was and worse then i could have ever thought it could get. Again, wont waste time in this post going over my story, but trust me when I say my time is long overdue.

Since im an adult (im 19) and have a 302 on my record, i have no chance to get a gun not to mention i have no money what so ever.

The only way i can think of to do it is fent.

Heres why:

I have been suicidal for a long time. And i have always wanted a painless and foolproof way out. No chances of me surviving, turning into a vegtable, etc.

If i get fentanyl testing strips, then ill be able to know for sure if something is lethal to kill me, right??

People die accidentally of fentanyl overdose all the time. So whywoudl it be impossible for me to seek it out for a painless ending that i so desperately NEED?

With that being said, i need help where i can get fent. Wether it be laced xanax with lethal amount, i dont care. I want fentnayl so it can kill me. People die of it all the time, no reason i shouldnt be able to.


Please. Help me find my ending. I have no desire to continue this torture.
 
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elenaboo25

Student
Oct 19, 2025
155
I do not recommend an opioid overdose of any kind. Failure would mean an instant opioid addiction, without the "fun" beforehand. Please try to find more reliable and less dangerous methods. However, if you do decide on an opioid overdose, here are some things to consider:

1. You will need a very large quantity of the opioid you choose. Much more than any addict would willingly consume. There are accidental overdoses, but you do not want to leave this up to chance.

2. Buying drugs on the black, whether on- or offline, carries risks. There are scams, people might be violent against you, you may get in trouble with law enforcement...

3. If there are harm reduction services in your area, use them. In many big cities around the world, you can have your drugs anonymously tested to make sure it is what you think it is. You can also get clean supplies like syringes etc. through harm reduction services aimed at drug addicts.

Lastly, you are 19. That is barely an adult. Please think carefully. Do you really want to die? It is a decision that, if successful, you cannot reverse.
 
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lilies.in.heaven

lilies.in.heaven

Member
Mar 26, 2025
37
If i get fentanyl testing strips, then ill be able to know for sure if something is lethal to kill me, right??
Take a look at the opioid megathread:

 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,992
I do not recommend an opioid overdose of any kind...

1. You will need a very large quantity of the opioid you choose. Much more than any addict would willingly consume. There are accidental overdoses, but you do not want to leave this up to chance.
They are not talking about trying some random opioid, they are talking about trying fentanyl, which is the one exception to the overdose rule. People OD on it so often that they hand out naloxone like candy in some places.
 
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telekon

telekon

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2025
405
A lot of us aren't okay... and that's okay. At 19, the world is your oyster. Go see what it can offer you before you take that final step into the void.
 
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Alice563

Member
Oct 17, 2024
76
I am thinking. Hospital use fentanyl. It seems after one surgery people do not get addicted. Am I wrong?
 
deadmanwalking1990

deadmanwalking1990

Student
Nov 16, 2025
129
I do not recommend an opioid overdose of any kind. Failure would mean an instant opioid addiction, without the "fun" beforehand. Please try to find more reliable and less dangerous methods. However, if you do decide on an opioid overdose, here are some things to consider:

1. You will need a very large quantity of the opioid you choose. Much more than any addict would willingly consume. There are accidental overdoses, but you do not want to leave this up to chance.

2. Buying drugs on the black, whether on- or offline, carries risks. There are scams, people might be violent against you, you may get in trouble with law enforcement...

3. If there are harm reduction services in your area, use them. In many big cities around the world, you can have your drugs anonymously tested to make sure it is what you think it is. You can also get clean supplies like syringes etc. through harm reduction services aimed at drug addicts.

Lastly, you are 19. That is barely an adult. Please think carefully. Do you really want to die? It is a decision that, if successful, you cannot reverse.
Pro lifer detected 🤣
 
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Alice563

Member
Oct 17, 2024
76
Pro lifer detected 🤣
But there are good points. If you can test drug for its purity, better do it because there is a lot if scammers. You think you use a proper amount of fent and apparently there is in powder only 5% of it.
 
deadmanwalking1990

deadmanwalking1990

Student
Nov 16, 2025
129
But there are good points. If you can test drug for its purity, better do it because there is a lot if scammers. You think you use a proper amount of fent and apparently there is in powder only 5% of it.
The drug test shows which drug is it,but it doesnt show the purity,only hospital spectometry can show you the purity,but they dont let people go in the hospital and say hey test this drug for me real quick,unfortunately the only way to get pure fent is if you can make it yourself(for me impossible) or extracting it from fent patches( easy to extract,but very hard to find,but im working on it)
 

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