I want to disappear without any trace at all.

[Tintypographer]

I think about dying all the time. It's part of my day to day existence. I'm a complete nihilist and believe nothing matters.

Lately I've thought about what I want the world to know of me after I die. I really want to disappear. Literally and physically disappear. Find the deepest part of the ocean I can find, chain myself to something heavy, pass away quickly and never be found. But leave no note. Simply disappear. No reason, no planning, no explanation and no future or mmemories. I want no funeral, no lamentations, no thoughts about me at all. I would prefer today to not exist. I dont want to be part of existing in memory in the future. I wish I had never existed and I don't even want anyone to look for the body. I thought about maybe leaving some sort of electronic loot box of the explanation of my demise jn case anyone I know gets accused of anything about my disappearance. Maybe not... I wish I could instantly disappear without any memory for anyone of who I was.

I don't actually think this view of life is such a big deal. It's not a hard decision for me. I can prove I won't matter at some point in the future and my life and career are meaningless paper pushing and justifications today. They can force another person to do the work and they won't even have to worry about it; what I do is such crap it doesn't matywr.

 

[whatevs]

Very Fernando Pessoish.

 

[jimmy7754]

You and me both.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just want to disappear and have my existence completely erased, like I never existed in the first place. If that happened I would not have to go through the process of planning suicide. It is my ideal way to be gone from this world. I think that nothing matters as well, we all just exist for the sake of existing and all that humans are doing is just passing the time until they die. I see no point to suffering until old age just to die eventually.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I feel the same, when I'm gone I want it to be like how it was before I was born. However I would have to leave a note explaining my actions to deter anyone from investigating it as a murder (just in case) and make sure anyone left behind knew this was 100% not their fault. There is nothing worse than guilt and I'd have to make sure everyone knew it was a decision I took for me and what was for the best. If I waited 10~ years however chances are I'd be all alone in the world and then a note would be pretty unnecessary.

 

[hopelessdreams]

non existence is the most appealing thing. but since that's impossible, death by own hand is the second best thing. i agree with you.

 

[inactive]

This is my mirage as well. It frustrates me that it's out of the question. It's bothersome that I existed even just a single day.

 

[AloneInCollege]

I agree, my wish is to be completely forgotten after I CTB

 

[born2win]

I agree, my wish is to be completely forgotten after I CTB

You will be forgotten once you enter zero second in life. Its only a mstter of time. The only way you wont be forgotten in this life is 3things:
1) Write a Book
2) Plant a Tree
3) Have kids
this is how i atleast see it

 

[LostOne]

Is disappearing impossible, people go missing all the time?

 

[Hollowillow]

I think about dying all the time. It's part of my day to day existence. I'm a complete nihilist and believe nothing matters.

Lately I've thought about what I want the world to know of me after I die. I really want to disappear. Literally and physically disappear. Find the deepest part of the ocean I can find, chain myself to something heavy, pass away quickly and never be found. But leave no note. Simply disappear. No reason, no planning, no explanation and no future or mmemories. I want no funeral, no lamentations, no thoughts about me at all. I would prefer today to not exist. I dont want to be part of existing in memory in the future. I wish I had never existed and I don't even want anyone to look for the body. I thought about maybe leaving some sort of electronic loot box of the explanation of my demise jn case anyone I know gets accused of anything about my disappearance. Maybe not... I wish I could instantly disappear without any memory for anyone of who I was.

I don't actually think this view of life is such a big deal. It's not a hard decision for me. I can prove I won't matter at some point in the future and my life and career are meaningless paper pushing and justifications today. They can force another person to do the work and they won't even have to worry about it; what I do is such crap it doesn't matywr.

Strangely they can look for a missing person for decades. So any suicide would work as long as you end up cremated and dumped? I think your bones can be found in the ocean thousands of year later? Just one small push before the universe is done?

I also just want to disappear and have my existence completely erased, like I never existed in the first place. If that happened I would not have to go through the process of planning suicide. It is my ideal way to be gone from this world. I think that nothing matters as well, we all just exist for the sake of existing and all that humans are doing is just passing the time until they die. I see no point to suffering until old age just to die eventually.

I'd like a time machine to go terminator on my own mom

 

[makethepainstop]

I think about dying all the time. It's part of my day to day existence. I'm a complete nihilist and believe nothing matters.

Lately I've thought about what I want the world to know of me after I die. I really want to disappear. Literally and physically disappear. Find the deepest part of the ocean I can find, chain myself to something heavy, pass away quickly and never be found. But leave no note. Simply disappear. No reason, no planning, no explanation and no future or mmemories. I want no funeral, no lamentations, no thoughts about me at all. I would prefer today to not exist. I dont want to be part of existing in memory in the future. I wish I had never existed and I don't even want anyone to look for the body. I thought about maybe leaving some sort of electronic loot box of the explanation of my demise jn case anyone I know gets accused of anything about my disappearance. Maybe not... I wish I could instantly disappear without any memory for anyone of who I was.

I don't actually think this view of life is such a big deal. It's not a hard decision for me. I can prove I won't matter at some point in the future and my life and career are meaningless paper pushing and justifications today. They can force another person to do the work and they won't even have to worry about it; what I do is such crap it doesn't matywr.

Believe you me, you are not ALONE! I have wished for decades that I could just vanish into a bright light with nothing left. There is something about being able to discorporate into energy for a microsecond and poof! No more me. I must admit I don't think there any known way to just convert one's mass into a quick burst of light energy. The thought does feel DELICIOUS!