
Serio
Member
- Feb 24, 2020
- 84
I keep saying how I want to die but yet I never do I always want to I always feel overwhelmed and scared I don't have any emotional regulation I want to kill myself for my bf I love him so much he means everything to me I think it would be better for him if I wasn't here I'm a lot to deal with but I don't want to be alone I want to leave him so he can be happy but I am selfish and I don't want to be alone and I'm scared I don't want to die I just don't want to hurt him or be alone I ruin everything all the time I destroy everything and I just want to be happy that's all I want I'm so scared of everything I overthink everything and I'm so tired and so exaughsted there is to much to think abt I'm thinking abt to much I always take everything to the extreme everything is extreme it hurts that it's so extreme I want it to stop I want everyone to be happy