So I've wanted to die for a while now. I constantly feel sad and the only time I feel good is when I'm talking to a guy who abused me. I really want to die to escape everything but I'm terrified of suicide. I've gotten so close before and then backed out last second. Does anyone know how to get over my fear so I can just die?
mayirestinchaos
My flesh glistens in the fire.
- Feb 5, 2023
- 19
xyz1232014
Ready 2 CTB
- Jan 25, 2023
- 7
I hear you my friend. I don't have an answer to your question, but I am in the same boat. I chickened out around Christmas and I regret not even trying (though perhaps I'd regret trying and failing even more). I've been researching methods for a long time now, and ultimately it just comes down to how we are wired as humans - the innate sense of self-preservation and avoidance of pain. From what I've read, those who choose more painful or gruesome methods (such as gunshot, rail, etc.), might be able to do so because they've been exposed to violence or great risk, e.g., former soldiers, police officers, etc. for a longer time. Peace.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 44,263
At least in my case I would have no problems going through with ctb if I had a peaceful and reliable method, but the fact that I don't is the reason as to why I'm still sadly trapped here. I also fear many of the methods as I would be scared of failing and just ending up in a worse condition. We really do all just deserve the option of N, we shouldn't have to suffer so much in leaving this hellish world, but there are just no easy answers to the question you asked and this is just the unfortunate reality.
sheepgirl
Student
- Aug 11, 2018
- 119
Me too. I'm mostly scared of what happens after. Part of me believes nothing happens but I've been reading NDE stories and they scare me..
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