I want to cut deeper. How?

[seeweed]

Ive always liked the view i see on my wrists after relapsing. I feel like that, a part of me isnt there without the sting on my arms after every shower, that bumpy line that follows after that red crimson color. I want to go deeper, this is the only thing i want to feel. Im tired of feeling numb, of feeling nothing, i only want to feel that oddly weird comfort that is coming from my wrists. I want to cut deeper, but i cant find a blade sharp enough. Does anyone have tips on how to? Or any other sh methods that can relieve this want and numbness?

 

[woofwag]

I don't think this is the type of thing anyone on here is going to (or really should) give advice for. This is a forum for unfiltered conversations about suicide, not how to hurt yourself better. Trying to cause additional harm isn't the intention of this site. There's always twitter if you want that kind of community