I want to CTB today/tonight.

[usernametaken]

So I have had SN from CCS for about a month. I have more knowledge now regarding it's "use" than before and have a few fears regarding the vomiting. I am already in pain and suffer everyday so I'm not entirely worried about it not being 100% peaceful. I am only concerned about it not 100% working. I suppose I will use a spoon to measure and put it inside some water bottles, shake it then drink it. This is my only option…I will fast and make sure I won't be found for at least 4-6 hours.

 

[Huntfish34]

Sorry that you are in so much pain and suffering. I wish you Nothing but the best in whatever may happen.

Thoughts and prayers always, Godspeed-

 

[usernametaken]

I kind of want to do an experiment first. I found a post here last night where someone only took 2g and described the experience. I'm all over the place I just want to drink it to know it works but like everyone else am worried about puking it all back up.

 

[Huntfish34]

I think if you try an " experiment " , it could very well backfire . Not sure, idk much about SN.... Just from some of the posts on here .

I hope it all works out for the best. -

 

[usernametaken]

I wish I had kept the tab to the post I found where the person experimenting described it. I have read the PPH chapter on SN and do believe it works just so skeptical still. I definitely cannot have it backfire. I'm just very curious about the taste and nausea without an AE.

 

[Storyteller]

Good luck. Testing will be unwise, I assume your body will become more prone to vomiting. I'll try it out tonight as well so safe travels to us both

 

[usernametaken]

What is in your kit though? All I have is SN from CCS bottle of 100g never opened and kept in a safe.
The label was put on crooked and could not find any purity sources on the website or bottle. Makes me second guess.
There was an article I found weeks ago before I found this website about a prosecuted sex offender who drank a bottle of this after the verdict and died before ever leaving the court room. I wonder if that's all it took.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that when the time is right for you to leave you find the freedom that you are searching for, best wishes.

 

[Storyteller]

What is in your kit though? All I have is SN from CCS bottle of 100g never opened and kept in a safe.

If you ask me and I understand correctly about kit, I took some anti-emetic day prior and today. As for other stuff I only got Ibuprofen and the only sedative I could get my hands on, it isn't the one from guides but close enough I assume. Every other sedative can only be ordered with a prescription which I don't have (considering my location as well, most of them are also not available). Also have been taking some pills to relieve anxiety for several days.