I want to ctb because of my guilt

[athusdragonheart]

I've done a lot of bad things in my past. Really bad things. I didn't intend to hurt anyone but realizing overtime of how sick I was makes me just want to end it all. I'm not sure if I'll go to prison or not but I know that I'm too weak to go on. I wish I had gotten help sooner. I wish I would've reached out for help. I really wanted to be a good person and help the world. But I ruined it and no one will forgive me.

 

[ADeadBunny]

Regret pushes a lot us us to end up in places like this. Some of mine aren't dissimilar to yours. I hope you can find a way to make peace with it, whatever you choose. I know how it feels to be eaten alive by your own memory.

 

[Antoine_Roquentin]

I've done a lot of bad things in my past. Really bad things. I didn't intend to hurt anyone but realizing overtime of how sick I was makes me just want to end it all. I'm not sure if I'll go to prison or not but I know that I'm too weak to go on. I wish I had gotten help sooner. I wish I would've reached out for help. I really wanted to be a good person and help the world. But I ruined it and no one will forgive me.

I'm in a very similar situation and at the moment see no other way out than to ctb. If I only could go back and change ONE little thing...

 

[trappedmamma]

I'm also feeling about the same as you. I've destroyed my family and I'm not a good mom. I feel like if I continue on, I will just cause more damage. I want to give everyone a chance at having a normal, happy life. I want to kill the monster. There are so many different choices I wish I could correct.

 

[uzuf86]

Just want to say hi, I'm a loser who made mistakes after mistakes without realizing I'd have to pay hefty prices down the line. Fast forward a decade and my mistakes have bitten me in the ass so hard that I've now become a joke.
Unfortunately time will never go back.
Every day, I dream of being dead.