Venting I want to CTB as soon as possible

[ChocoPie]

I have absolutely no will to live, my life has been absolute garbage, the only thing that makes me happy is that death exists, I'm not romanticizing it...It is simply a fact that death will end all my suffering, I could die rn and nothing would matter to me anymore, I want to die as soon as possible so I won't make anymore deep connections with people, I see so many ppl stuck in this because of how much they care abt their loved ones and how their death will hurt others, in my life only my dad genuinely cares about me and his sad devastated face appears in my mind everytime I think abt ending my life but I also know I can't keep living like this, it hurts so much.... I'll only cause more damage if I live any longer and that's why I wanna die as soon as possible, I'm studying methods for now.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to be gone, all I want is to never suffer in this cruel existence ever again, I really understand just wanting to be free from the suffering, I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.

 

[r.m.216]

I have absolutely no will to live, my life has been absolute garbage, the only thing that makes me happy is that death exists, I'm not romanticizing it...It is simply a fact that death will end all my suffering, I could die rn and nothing would matter to me anymore, I want to die as soon as possible so I won't make anymore deep connections with people, I see so many ppl stuck in this because of how much they care abt their loved ones and how their death will hurt others, in my life only my dad genuinely cares about me and his sad devastated face appears in my mind everytime I think abt ending my life but I also know I can't keep living like this, it hurts so much.... I'll only cause more damage if I love any longer and that's why I wanna die as soon as possible, I'm studying methods for now.

I think we've all been there. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope you find peace in whatever shape that may be

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry you are suffering so much
hope you find the relief you search for