I want to be told “It’s okay to let go”

[willitpass]

I just want to be told it's okay to let go. I want to be told that I've fought for a long time and that it's okay if I'm tired and want to let go. It would be so freeing. People who go through 10 years of treatment for a physical health issue would be told understanding things about it being okay to give up. Why can't the same grace be given for mental health? I've been fighting for 10. Fucking. Years. With suicidal thoughts. Even longer with general mental health issues. I just want the people close to me to let me let go.

 

[MrDarkness]

I'm there currently. But I have stuff that keeps me fighting. I want to learn about this world and help those in need. I've had depression since I was 12 I've self harmed A lot I've attempted my own life once. One thing I did learn. After surviving, your view changes on life. Some times for the better some times for the worse. Keep going keep fighting. Everyone is unique. But if you choose to let go. Remember the impact it will have. Take care

 

[willitpass]

I'm there currently. But I have stuff that keeps me fighting. I want to learn about this world and help those in need. I've had depression since I was 12 I've self harmed A lot I've attempted my own life once. One thing I did learn. After surviving, your view changes on life. Some times for the better some times for the worse. Keep going keep fighting. Everyone is unique. But if you choose to let go. Remember the impact it will have. Take care

I don't want to be told to keep going and keep fighting. I'm sick of being told that. I have been depressed since I was 9 and suicidal since i was 11. I have been in treatment all of that time. I have been through every outpatient program available, inpatient too many times to count, I've been in a residential, I've been on every medication in the book, I was even given shock therapy. I have fucking done my fair share of "keep going keep fighting". I've had 3 attempts already. I'm sick of fighting. And I think Ive earned the right to be sick of it. And please don't remind me of the impact my death will have on people. I am more than well aware that I will be hurting people and I hate it, but I cannot continue to fight for other people. That is the exact opposite of what I want to be told.

 

[MrDarkness]

It's your life, it's up to you if you wanna quit. If I had the option to ctb I would rn, but personally i the desire to learn, I'm sorry if my post offended you. But just remember, life is fucking random shithole, so things might change for the better… or the worst… once again sorry if my post offended you

 

[compassionexitneed]

I don't want to be told to keep going and keep fighting. I'm sick of being told that. I have been depressed since I was 9 and suicidal since i was 11. I have been in treatment all of that time. I have been through every outpatient program available, inpatient too many times to count, I've been in a residential, I've been on every medication in the book, I was even given shock therapy. I have fucking done my fair share of "keep going keep fighting". I've had 3 attempts already. I'm sick of fighting. And I think Ive earned the right to be sick of it. And please don't remind me of the impact my death will have on people. I am more than well aware that I will be hurting people and I hate it, but I cannot continue to fight for other people. That is the exact opposite of what I want to be told.

I'm right there with you , I am so sick of pleading and begging for them to understand , I have both physical and mental, female , I need to go soon but my methods are jumping from 9 stories with drugs benzos and pain killers or plastic bag suffocation with drugs

 

[illAF]

I just want to be told it's okay to let go. I want to be told that I've fought for a long time and that it's okay if I'm tired and want to let go. It would be so freeing. People who go through 10 years of treatment for a physical health issue would be told understanding things about it being okay to give up. Why can't the same grace be given for mental health? I've been fighting for 10. Fucking. Years. With suicidal thoughts. Even longer with general mental health issues. I just want the people close to me to let me let go.

This is just EXACTLY what I've been saying all week

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Yesss it's very isolating to not be told its ok. Like I get it peole wanna encourage living but when ur tired and don't want to it'd be nice to be told its ok. Also as humans we naturally want & need reassurance. It makes a huge difference between just feeling alone vs feeling validated.

Im tryna learn that the validation doesn't matter/I can't expect it but I'm still hopin...

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly think that suicidal people deserve to have their feelings validated, just the fact that so many people are anti-suicide shows the lack of compassion there is towards the suffering people go through, I find it so insensitive when people are expected to carry on delaying their inevitable fate no matter what. Not wanting to suffer anymore will always be a perfectly valid way to feel.

 

[SpiderLink]

I just want to be told it's okay to let go. I want to be told that I've fought for a long time and that it's okay if I'm tired and want to let go. It would be so freeing. People who go through 10 years of treatment for a physical health issue would be told understanding things about it being okay to give up. Why can't the same grace be given for mental health? I've been fighting for 10. Fucking. Years. With suicidal thoughts. Even longer with general mental health issues. I just want the people close to me to let me let go.

I think people use this quote when it comes to certain things, but no one says it about suicide. I want you to check out this song, it's called "let me let go" by citizen solider I think you'll enjoy it

 

[Readytogo246]

It's ok to let go and honor yourself and your feelings. Let it all go............

 

[just_so_done]

everything you said i feel, ive been struggling for decades and their response is you don't need more supports, just do it, even if you don't want to do laundry (cant get out of bed, spending most of the time crying in unbearable emotional pain) or eat healthy (eating disorder) or go out (crippling social anxiety). they think oh just do it and push yourself and youll be better. They dont understand and never will but like you i wish they would just let me go too. i see and feel your pain.

 

[SunnyDay_NoSunshine]

I just want to be told it's okay to let go. I want to be told that I've fought for a long time and that it's okay if I'm tired and want to let go. It would be so freeing. People who go through 10 years of treatment for a physical health issue would be told understanding things about it being okay to give up. Why can't the same grace be given for mental health? I've been fighting for 10. Fucking. Years. With suicidal thoughts. Even longer with general mental health issues. I just want the people close to me to let me let go.

people truly close to you will never let you go. likely same as you would to people close to you.

at the end it is your choice to let go or not. when I struggled with this debate I realized it is my choice. and it was best for me to shed the close ones so that I can give myself permission to let go and they would not have to go thru a lot.

it is you who needs to learn to let yourself feel empowered enough toward you

 

[enough of this]

I just want to be told it's okay to let go. I want to be told that I've fought for a long time and that it's okay if I'm tired and want to let go. It would be so freeing. People who go through 10 years of treatment for a physical health issue would be told understanding things about it being okay to give up. Why can't the same grace be given for mental health? I've been fighting for 10. Fucking. Years. With suicidal thoughts. Even longer with general mental health issues. I just want the people close to me to let me let go.

I think the only reason people don't tell you it's okay to let go, is because they're more concerned about THEIR life than yours.
It's an incredible selfishness, possibly born of THEIR fear of death. They don't want to face the feelings they anticipate they're going to have when you die.

 

[willitpass]

I think people use this quote when it comes to certain things, but no one says it about suicide. I want you to check out this song, it's called "let me let go" by citizen solider I think you'll enjoy it

I actually have that song on a playlist. Citizen Soldier has some really good music.

 

[enough of this]

I actually have that song on a playlist. Citizen Soldier has some really good music.

I actually have that song on a playlist. Citizen Soldier has some really good music.

I love this song.

 

[lokabe82]

You are in my thoughts. Being suicidal long term is exhausting and it is okay to let go. I offer you hugs.

 

[enough of this]

I actually have that song on a playlist. Citizen Soldier has some really good music.

And, another from Citizen Soldier...

 

[willitpass]

And, another from Citizen Soldier...

I'll give that one a listen

 

[imissmykitten]

someone online told me they would be saddened if i died, but that it would be my right and they could not stop me. and that was so comforting to hear – to hear about someone caring about me, yet not repeating the same "seek professional help" stuff as everyone else. to have someone outside of this forum understand that it's your right to let go

 

[theRetroHawk]

I just want to be told it's okay to let go. I want to be told that I've fought for a long time and that it's okay if I'm tired and want to let go. It would be so freeing. People who go through 10 years of treatment for a physical health issue would be told understanding things about it being okay to give up. Why can't the same grace be given for mental health? I've been fighting for 10. Fucking. Years. With suicidal thoughts. Even longer with general mental health issues. I just want the people close to me to let me let go.

I agree with this post 1000 percent and it is indeed okay to let go. I hate people telling me it will get better and whatever because I've been trying to get better for almost a decade now I don't want to be like this and I think it's just that the cards I've been given to play put me in an unwinnable situation. I'm not telling you one way or another what to do but in my experience the empty words and promises are just society's ways of forcing you to continue to play this sick game and nobody will admit that maybe if I'm not happy I don't have to play anymore

 

[willitpass]

And, another from Citizen Soldier...

Bedroom ceiling is also a really good one

 

[SpiderLink]

I actually have that song on a playlist. Citizen Soldier has some really good music.

Yes! I love their music so much! I'm glad u know it

Bedroom ceiling is also a really good one

Yeah, honestly I have about 90% of their songs on my playlist. There's only I couple I don't have

And, another from Citizen Soldier...

Loving this new one too

 

[enough of this]

Bedroom ceiling is also a really good one

So is If I Surrender

 

[Scythe]

Well, it's okay to let go. Life isn't for everyone, and that's okay. If you want to leave, that's a valid option. It's good to know your limits and have a line that you would not cross and maybe it is time for you to go. There's no need to prolong your suffering indefinity to see if it gets better after you been doing that for ten years. I wish you all the best, whatever the future may have in hold for you.