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DrJ3llyf1sh

PM me for info about SN / KN / ODing
Apr 6, 2025
51
My CTB date is in 12 days. The more time passes the more I think about the afterlife, about whether or not I've left enough behind to give people close to me, about the things I need to hurry up and do so I don't miss out on too much. I'm almost done my bucket list. I'm ready to go. But when I do, I want to be held. I want my bestfriend stroking my hair as I die peacefully. Of course, they can't know about my plans or they'll try to stop me. Does anyone else want to CTB while being comforted into death?
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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Ya I wish someone could hold my hand while I die
 
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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Paragon
Mar 15, 2025
971
not me, I want to die alone. I'm not comfortable being near people, and I don't want anyone around.
 
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Apokryphiel

Apokryphiel

Leave me
Mar 23, 2025
104
That'd be so perfect, wouldn't it? Alas, we live in a very imperfect world. Not many people would be okay with someone killing themselves, let alone comforting them as they do it. Such a shame.
 
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PoppyBlack

PoppyBlack

disappearing
Feb 16, 2025
2
I would. Very much. However, if I felt there was someone who cared enough to be there, I might not want to go so much!
 
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eternalexhaustion

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Apr 6, 2025
8
I was just thinking about this scenario and how nice it would be if I could just be hugged by someone as I go. The thought of ctb makes me feel very lonely and scared, but I know it's unlikely to happen, and that's something I have to deal with.
 
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Bad Ending

Bad Ending

Anhedonia and PSSD sufferer
Mar 16, 2025
87
I've been thinking about this a lot
 
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Luminous_

Luminous_

Puss-Eating-Pot-Princess
Jan 20, 2025
30
I feel similarly, I'm strangely jealous of those who unfortunately have a terminal illness; because their family all know, they can be there for them and they can just talk about what will happen and their mortality. This is a luxury people who commit suicide aren't allowed, along with a method of suicide that is painless and quick.
 
mossmoth

mossmoth

Member
Mar 30, 2025
56
Honestly, being held in any situation sounds nice to me. I just want to be held. but being held while i ctb would be amazing.

That reminds me, I forgot "Arms Tonite" by mother mother existed. It's a song about ctb in someone's arms. Just got smacked back into 2021 tiktok haha
 
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Cress

Arcanist
Oct 15, 2023
436
I think the person holding your hand would also be trying to stop you from taking your own life. Something that's only available to people in the hospital when the timing lines up I suppose And everyone knows they have a terminal illness. I'm also kind of scared to die alone.
 
mossrabbit

mossrabbit

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Apr 12, 2025
99
More than anything, honestly.
 
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Xiaojiu

Xiaojiu

cease to exist 不复存在
Mar 28, 2025
678
I think about this a lot :( Would want my hand held and for me to be hugged. But, I know that won't happen.

I know when it does happen, I will be alone. And probably just have my fave stuffed animal with me and a framed photo of my sister who passed away a few years ago. :(
 
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elkheart

beautiful things don't beg for attention
Feb 8, 2025
41
I think about this a lot :( Would want my hand held and for me to be hugged. But, I know that won't happen.

I know when it does happen, I will be alone. And probably just have my fave stuffed animal with me and a framed photo of my sister who passed away a few years ago. :(
stuffed animal vibes here too 🥰
 

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