Help I want no one to be blamed for my death

[firebolts]

My older brother is severely and debilitatingly schizophrenic and autistic. Because of the backwards ass country my dad and his part of the family blame my mom for this, even though she is the one that cared for him and my dad wasnt even around that much. My brother got aggresive and tried to kill my aunt and now he is living in a medical facility.

Thing is, im 21. I live with my mom and am in university. I already bought SN and am planning to do the deed in the next weeks. My mom is inevitably going to get blamed for this. I dont know what to say or do to make sure no one feels guilt. The only thing thats stopping me right now would be her. I want to die because i dont want to keep wasting their money, i fail and fail again. I thought i liked my career but this is my 5th year taking second-year classes. Im in debt.

Genuinely looking for any thoughts you guys might have

 

[dospi1]

maybe make sure people couldnt blame her? like putting it very explicitly in a letter or something like that. if they want to blame her they woudl balme her, sadly i dont think theres much to do if thats the case

 

[FuneralCry]

I would personally see it as being best to write a note explaining this for those left behind, I would just say that suicide is what I wanted and that it's nobody else's fault. A well explained note could mean that those left behind are less likely to be left with as many unanswered questions.

 

[The anhedonic one]

Just leave a simple letter explaining the main points and that nobody is to blame.
It will stop people wondering if they were to blame

 

[Braindead Atheist]

My older brother is severely and debilitatingly schizophrenic and autistic. Because of the backwards ass country my dad and his part of the family blame my mom for this, even though she is the one that cared for him and my dad wasnt even around that much. My brother got aggresive and tried to kill my aunt and now he is living in a medical facility.

Thing is, im 21. I live with my mom and am in university. I already bought SN and am planning to do the deed in the next weeks. My mom is inevitably going to get blamed for this. I dont know what to say or do to make sure no one feels guilt. The only thing thats stopping me right now would be her. I want to die because i dont want to keep wasting their money, i fail and fail again. I thought i liked my career but this is my 5th year taking second-year classes. Im in debt.

Genuinely looking for any thoughts you guys might have

Maybe leave a note explaining that its not your mom's fault and that your dad actually caused some of your stress. Or post a YouTube video before you do the deed. I myself want to die with closure. I think other people should know they're at fault. You don't necessarily have to blame anyone, but I would explain the situation.