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SR20DET

SR20DET

꒰ঌ Angel ໒꒱
Dec 31, 2023
11
I'm so tired..



I always do things for everyone.
I genuinely care about them..


They always care about someone else.



I'm only the replacement.



All I wanted was a hug from someone who cares about me,

not someone who sees me as someone else.



I'm hugging my plushies, imagining they're someone else..
I rub their little hands against my head like it's a real hand..

stroking my hair, gently.



I'm sure it feels warm.
I want to feel it too..



I just want someone to love me.


Not someone who takes it all and leaves me empty..


It hurts.



I want to rest my head in someone's hands,
have them embrace me,
make me feel safe.
make me feel like everything is going to be alright..

so I won't be alone when I go.

I want someone to hug me, I don't want to die alone..
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,822
I know it's not the same, but an e-hug is coming your way. You are not alone here.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,420
🤗
 
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Paragon
Sep 21, 2022
966
I sent you a hug.
 
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U. A.

U. A.

"Ultra Based" gigashad
Aug 8, 2022
2,600
🫂
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
1,837
I hope you're able to find someone who truly cares for you irl~ >_< same tbh... :( huggies~

Anime hug down 1
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
2,393
I do that with my plushies too. Sorry you can't get huggie :<

Friend GIF
 
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emptymiku

emptymiku

bokura wa inochi ni kirawarete iru
Mar 27, 2023
222
i wish i could die embracing my only friend.
 
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Linda

Linda

Member
Jul 30, 2020
2,164
You can gladly have a hug from me. (Even though I know you would probably prefer one from someone closer to your own age.)
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,510
sending you hugs and love 🫂:heart:
 
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eupdplishlp

eupdplishlp

Please share with me what you are bearing
Jul 15, 2025
232
I'm so tired..



I always do things for everyone.
I genuinely care about them..


They always care about someone else.



I'm only the replacement.



All I wanted was a hug from someone who cares about me,

not someone who sees me as someone else.



I'm hugging my plushies, imagining they're someone else..
I rub their little hands against my head like it's a real hand..

stroking my hair, gently.



I'm sure it feels warm.
I want to feel it too..



I just want someone to love me.


Not someone who takes it all and leaves me empty..


It hurts.



I want to rest my head in someone's hands,
have them embrace me,
make me feel safe.
make me feel like everything is going to be alright..

so I won't be alone when I go.

I want someone to hug me, I don't want to die alone *gives enourmous soul hug*
*give a hug from the soul*

You have a way with words that is very touching.
you deserve to be held and loved and told you are enough for this world
becasue you are

in your perfectly, imperfect way you are more than enough, beause you care
It takes a brave soul to care in this world and for that I will honour and commend you in your triumph and journey getting here

I wish you unconditional love that has no limits and peace to hug your soul eternially. :heart:🫂
 
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TheLastGreySky

TheLastGreySky

Wizard
Nov 24, 2023
690
To
I'm so tired..



I always do things for everyone.
I genuinely care about them..


They always care about someone else.



I'm only the replacement.



All I wanted was a hug from someone who cares about me,

not someone who sees me as someone else.



I'm hugging my plushies, imagining they're someone else..
I rub their little hands against my head like it's a real hand..

stroking my hair, gently.



I'm sure it feels warm.
I want to feel it too..



I just want someone to love me.


Not someone who takes it all and leaves me empty..


It hurts.



I want to rest my head in someone's hands,
have them embrace me,
make me feel safe.
make me feel like everything is going to be alright..

so I won't be alone when I go.

I want someone to hug me, I don't want to die alone..
This might seem out of left field but I'm almost 100% positive you're a "Little" and I bring this up, because you really need someone who is like a platonic caregiver who supports you emotionally, if you date someone and it's not platonic that's your business, but you are very sensitive and have a really big heart. Hopefully you find someone soon to remind you how amazing you are each and every day.
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
704
I'm feeling the same way

sending a virtual but warm and sincere hug for you! 🤗
Loading Hug GIF by MOODMAN
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
Yeah, I agree with Last Gray Sky,OP.Don't give so much when you get so little. I know that's easier said than done because you have a giving personality I believe and no one can change so easily.But please try to be a bit more selfish.

You deserve proper hugs, as many as you want from someone in your life that truly cherishes you.

For now please accept this one,

images
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
6,900
images
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,853
@SR20DET I could have written most of what you did. I empathize too much with what you wrote. I'm so touch starved and completely unable to resolve that. I am sorry you understand what this feels like, I wish better for you. I have never known what being touched/hugged by someone who loves you for just being you feels like. I imagine it would be nice, though.
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,279
Perhaps somewhat related....I once saw a video of a guy in what looked liked like shopping mall holding a sign that said Free Hugs. He had a few takers in the clip I saw.
 
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Dejected 55

Dejected 55

Visionary
May 7, 2025
2,853
I've seen those... and maybe they are good (the free hugs) for some... but it wouldn't be for me. A faux hug from a stranger wouldn't mean anything to me and it would feel so awkward. I need a hug from someone who knows and sees and cares about me. It needs to be real. I'm not saying sexual... But it needs to come from a sincere place where you both care about each other. Otherwise the hug is like a handshake, something people do because they think they are supposed to... and I'd get nothing from that. Hell, I probably would feel worse after that faux hug.
 
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