I want a tragic end so I don’t seem like a failure

[moonflow3r]

Title. I'm a bunch of wasted potential. I never changed. I never matured. I wasted so much money and peoples time. It was for me, but comparison is the killer of joy. It was never enough for me. Now I'm back in this age regression childlike behavior, self destroying myself. Biting my nails. I don't shower. I don't eat. I don't brush my teeth. What am I made for? All of this happened because I didn't follow my heart. It's always this fucking mess of a head I got. I overthink and over think and overthink and make a big deal out of everything. It was so easy and simple. Like my mom told me. Just keep going, be humble and work hard. I never learn. I never listen. This ego of mine will be the end of me.

 

[bipolar22]

I don't believe in this word failure. Of course there's a thing as failing at something. Bit it's not a bad thing as society teaches us. People have flaws. Things don't work. I don't see anyone as a failure. Life just hands us different cards and if someone does the best he can do with the shit he has been handed surely doesn't qualify as being a failure. I know not helpful to your post just some thought I had