Venting I want a gun.

[Ugly3]

I had a poorly planned suicide attempt when I was a teenager, got sent to the psych ward, and now I cannot buy a gun. I am also too depressed to get a job to afford one anyways... That would have been my ideal method! I am very upset but there is nothing I can do now.
I find it ironic how all these horrible people can get their hands on one to do an attack, but when I want to peacefully end my suffering its an issue.

 

[Yakui]

if youre not picky, skip to 5:19 and watch from there.
https://files.catbox.moe/g6y39w.mp4

 

[LastNite]

3d printing is a thing, but idk how easy that is. It's probably expensive too.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just want to be free from all suffering as well, I understand just wanting peace from this torturous, futile existence, I hope you find the relief you search for.