Venting I wanna relapse so badly.

[sgifeei]

I am 3 years clean from sh, and I feel like I wanna do it again so badly.
I want to destroy myself.
I used to abuse benzos, but I have already been warned that I will go into rehab if it gets out of control.
Should I get drunk just to get thoughts a bit out of my head?

 

[starboy2k]

this is how I feel about weed/vaping
i would go feral for one right now, sadly you can't partake in shit like this when you're broke