I tried taking a break from the internet for a few days, still feel like crap

[shampoo sniffer]

I'm done, I want to be GONE from this plane of existence.

I went on holiday with my parents for a few days. I thought stepping outside of my little bubble would bring a fresh perspective, but nope. I felt intense feelings of wanting to die, even worse that how I usually feel. I kept seeing old people and thinking "is that what I have to look forward to?"

Can someone PM me a source of nitrite? I'm in the UK.

 

[Dingusguy]

I tried taking long walks through forests, on the beach, through town. and if anything it always makes it worse because out there I get to see people who are happy with their lives, and while I don't wish ill on them, it makes me froth with envy.

 

[Elsie]

That makes sense. Seeing other people happy can really sting when you're not in the same place. Try laying on the ground and imagine happy time or... Feeling the atmosphere? Surrounding nature? Play with the sand? Yes, distract itself with activities! Try try! Having dog or cat as a companion is an extra fun!