I tried cutting but failed ;))

[meatchunx_]

A follow up of another post I made (I am not suicidal btw)
I tried cutting and only ended up making little baby cat scratches
I dont know how people do it i wish I had the courage but I cant, maybe it's because im doing it wrong and pulling it across my skin slowly
I feel like I should be doing it quicker but the thought of it makes me hesitant
Ill try again another time but I may not do this anymore depending on if I can take it or not

 

[Not.Flugel]

Is there any reason why you are so adamant on cutting? There are other methods of self harm. Also cat scratches are not invaldating, but I don't get why you cut when you clearly don't want to.

 

[never mind me]

Why do you want to cut deeper? It may actually be an advantage to only produce cat scratches. This way you will have way less trouble with wounds causing you annoyances like getting infected, not to speak of the risk of hitting nerves or arteries, if you cut too deep in the wrong place.

 

[Mirrory Me]

It should produce endorphins, but so do many other things. I would rather do it like this:

Is Masturbation Actually Bad for Your Brain?

There’s a lot of conflicting info — including some myths and rumors! — about whether masturbation is bad for you. We break it down.

www.healthline.com

 

[BloomingStrella]

What did you use to cut yourself? And yes, you're supposed to do it quickly; that way whatever blade you're using penetrates the skin. If you're hesitant on doing it quickly, self-harm by cutting most likely isn't for you. Self-harm in general is not a good idea, I just do it because I find a little pleasure from it, but if done wrong, you could have serious injuries. If you don't feel good thinking about cutting yourself, that's perfectly fine too, you're not a coward or anything.

 

[Bleedingheartbeat]

I remember pain being my motivation for cutting. I had all this pain and rage on the inside and cutting felt like releasing the pressure that's building up inside. Sort of like letting air out of a balloon. It was after a break up. And Because of this I have some pretty permanent scars on my arm. But man this might be a controversial thing to say but I think cutting saves my life. The pain I experienced from that break up was so bad that I felt relief when I cut. It gave my mind something to focus on. But before that years ago when I was in high school I tried cutting because I was numb and wanted to feel something but I just couldn't get into it- I was only able to produce a few cat scratches like you. So maybe rn cutting isn't what you need. And you can explore other ways of SH.

 

[Not.Flugel]

It should produce endorphins, but so do many other things. It doesn't help anything in the long run, it just leaves ugly marks on the body. There are better ways to process and release emotional pain, things that support your well-being and growth as a person.

Yes once you grow up you get cooler coping mechanisms, like substance abuse /s
But yes it's a shit coping mechanism and don't start in your edgy teen phase because it's "cool", it's fucking not. I am fucked up and my scared body attest to that. Its something that makes my suicidal thoughts go away even if only for like a minute or two, it's fucking bad and the worst coping mechanism next to alcoholism. Also, being active on MOS it's unbearable seeing teens start it for any reason.

What did you use to cut yourself? And yes, you're supposed to do it quickly; that way whatever blade you're using penetrates the skin. If you're hesitant on doing it quickly, self-harm by cutting most likely isn't for you. Self-harm in general is not a good idea, I just do it because I find a little pleasure from it, but if done wrong, you could have serious injuries. If you don't feel good thinking about cutting yourself, that's perfectly fine too, you're not a coward or anything.

Just wanted to say that it's also possible to cut while doing it slowly, hurts way more though.

 

[noonipie]

sometimes im like you too where i cut just because, even if theyre superficial cuts. pressing down slightly harder and swiping quickly (especially with a new blade) will produce deeper cuts. but the feeling is relatively the same as super small cuts. really, there are only disadvantages to cutting deeper. it's scarier because there's less control, sometimes with really deep cuts there are medical risks too like infections that has been mentioned earlier on this thread, and more noticeable, sometimes risen scars that can be painful when they heal as well. honestly, i understand the desire. but i dont recommend trying to cut deeper. if you're able to, look for less damaging coping mechanisms or try to wean yourself off of the desire to cut <3

 

[PurpleParadigm]

At first I thought this was about someone trying to attempt ctb by cutting, (which is odviously not a reliable suicide method at all, it's not recommended if one wishes to succeed). the title is misleading, this thread should be in offtopic, what does this even have to do with suicide, you do know that this is a suicide discussion.

Since when are you an arbiter of what should be posted here? People's suffering should not be for anyone's entertainment. I must also add, that if we are being absolutely pedantic, discussion of mostly political and philosphical nature as well as advocacy/activism don't quite belong here either. I want to die, I don't want to be a part of someone's political agenda.

Here is a quick look at what off-topic is for:

I'm failing to see the overlap between self-harm and music, games, hobbies and interests?

 

[Bleedingheartbeat]

At first I thought this was about someone trying to attempt ctb by cutting, (which is odviously not a reliable suicide method at all, it's not recommended if one wishes to succeed). the title is misleading, this thread should be in offtopic, what does this even have to do with suicide, you do know that this is a suicide discussion.

Uhm sir, this ain't it.