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Snee

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have a good sleep.
 
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MachineGunDani

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I hope ur ok and find peace!
 
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Wantingpeace

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I hope you are well whether you are on this side or next
 
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Bodylotion

Bodylotion

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Aug 11, 2018
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I burst out in tears and couldn't do it.. I want to but I'm so afraid. I slept all day in my bed afterwards and put the N back in the bottles with a funnel and closed them with the rubber cap.
Then I hear the doorbell going several times but I ignored it, I wanted to keep laying in bed. Then when I go down to get some food I see a card in the mail that the mailman missed me and there's a package at the neighbours.
But I didn't order anything I think to myself. I go to the neighbours and ask for my package, he gives it to me and it looks exactly like the N package I got last Tuesday. So I open it up, and yup, another two bottles. I guess A made a mistake and sent me another two bottles.

Also I am not gonna log my attempts here anymore, it feels stupid when I don't go through with it. I am sorry.
 
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Wantingpeace

Wantingpeace

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Aug 16, 2018
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Just wish you ok ☺
 
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Justanotherconsumer

Justanotherconsumer

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Jul 9, 2018
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Nothing to be sorry about glad your ok.
 
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Bodylotion

Bodylotion

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Aug 11, 2018
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Thank you for the kind words.

It feels like someone wants me really dead, if I don't use the first two bottles within a month when they expired since I opened them so that I still have two reserve ones unopened >_<
 
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couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
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I burst out in tears and couldn't do it.. I want to but I'm so afraid. I slept all day in my bed afterwards and put the N back in the bottles with a funnel and closed them with the rubber cap.
Then I hear the doorbell going several times but I ignored it, I wanted to keep laying in bed. Then when I go down to get some food I see a card in the mail that the mailman missed me and there's a package at the neighbours.
But I didn't order anything I think to myself. I go to the neighbours and ask for my package, he gives it to me and it looks exactly like the N package I got last Tuesday. So I open it up, and yup, another two bottles. I guess A made a mistake and sent me another two bottles.

Also I am not gonna log my attempts here anymore, it feels stupid when I don't go through with it. I am sorry.


jesus is this fate?
 
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DeathBecomesMe

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Sep 9, 2018
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Hey Bodylotion no need to be sorry! It's nice to see you are still here with us.

Wow that's lucky, now you have fresh sealed bottles incase you don't want to take a chance with the old ones being opened and stored again. A must have lost his marbles, he must be so used to resending, he probably sent to the wrong address. Someone somewhere is probably waiting for their N after their first delivery failed as well.
 
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Lara Francis

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What ever u do I hope u find peace. Don't feel pressured. It's a big choice so if it feels off then maybe think about it longer. Either way u kno there are people here for u if u need it, including me! Hugs!!
Well said. I agree
Hope you are OK bodylotion xx
 
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