i took benzos and start puking..

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Whyyyy! i want to try again ctb but fuck i can't even take benzos fuck this society, why have to taste like garbage?

Some life are living hell why society don't accept that, im not stupid or mentally ill its just my life turned like that because lot of misfortune, bad parents etc
So why torturing me like the worst criminal? i never hurted anyone!!

While i puke, can't sleep, crying, laying in bad, watching all time my rope
The girl i falled in love enjoy this holyday while fucking and laughing at me call me mentally ill, i can't imagine a worst torture than this, and probably some criminal take death sentence and maybe it will be even peaceful!!

 

[befree]

Benzodiazepines alone usually don't work. There are methods where a benzodiazepine is a part of the method. In any case, you should know that a benzo overdose, alone or as part of a method, can cause permanent brain damage caused by hypoxia, as a result of respiratory depression / respiratory arrest.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Benzodiazepines alone usually don't work. There are methods where a benzodiazepine is a part of the method. In any case, you should know that a benzo overdose, alone or as part of a method, can cause permanent brain damage caused by hypoxia, as a result of respiratory depression / respiratory arrest.

I was taking lot of benzos for try to hang myself.. my life is so trash i can't

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds so painful and dreadful what you have to endure, I find it so horrible how people have to suffer so much with no straightforward way to free themselves in peace, it disgusts me how suicide is purposely made so difficult.

 

[befree]

I was taking lot of benzos for try to hang myself.. my life is so trash i can't

I´m sorry to hear this. There are two risks for permanent brain damage in one method. Both, hanging and a benzo overdose can cause permanent brain damage in case of failure. Which benzo and which dose did you take ?

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

I´m sorry to hear this. There are two risks for permanent brain damage in one method. Both, hanging and a benzo overdose can cause permanent brain damage in case of failure. Which benzo and which dose did you take ?

Maybe thats why i have memorie problems.. a lot of 1 mg benzo but puked almost instantly after eat them

 

[befree]

How many is a lot ? Which benzo, Diazepam ? When did you take it ? How many minutes / hours before hanging ? Do you have access to an antiemetic ? Vomiting can also be triggered by excitement, stress and anxiety. Maybe you have seen in movies that people vomited after they received bad news and were shocked.

Do you take any other medications ? (possible interactions that cause vometing)

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

How many is a lot ? Which benzo, Diazepam ? When did you take it ? How many minutes / hours before hanging ? Do you have access to an antiemetic ? Vomiting can also be triggered by excitement, stress and anxiety. Maybe you have seen in movies that people vomited after they received bad news and were shocked.

Do you take any other medications ? (possible interactions that cause vometing)

like 13/14 1 mg after eat them i drink some water and start to puke almost immediatly

I didn't tried hanging after that because i was taking xanax for let me simplify hanging, but after puked i think i would have puked again with the pressure of the rope

I vomit lot of times, even when i was young i think so its really simple for me personally

No
Honestly maybe i vomited because i was starving? i don't know if correlate?

 

[befree]

maybe i vomited because i was starving? i don't know if correlate?

Yes, I think this was the reason, but a second reason could have been what I just said, stress, anxiety. Since you vomited immediately, no benzos can be metabolized and cannot be the cause of memory problems.

What are you planing to do now ?

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Yes, I think this was the reason, but a second reason could have been what I just said, stress, anxiety. Since you vomited immediately, no benzos can be metabolized and cannot be the cause of memory problems.

What are you planing to do now ?

I mean other times i took benzos i got memory problem but yeah even if i didn't take them usually.. its just more memory lost if i take them without puke

I still starving and cutting

I want to feel like braindead, so maybe starving+ alchol+benzos can help me ctb with full hanging, but yeah i didn't imagine starving will make me vomit so maybe i have to chance plan

 

[befree]

Yes, maybe you have to change your plan and method. All of this doesn't sound like a reliable and peaceful way to go.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Yes, maybe you have to change your plan and method.

sad honestly.. i really liked the dizzines by starving i thought maybe if get intensifis it would help me ctb.. i will try keep going for now maybe with less xanax

 

[befree]

maybe with less xanax

Right, to have a clear thought and to plan consciously and rationally.