I feel so stupid for throwing it away. I had my way out and I threw it away out of fear of how I would drink it and then regret it later, fearfully waiting for death. But now I sit at home crying every day wishing to end it. I even wrote out suicide notes and a letter to my younger self. I would end it tomorrow morning if I could. I'd wake up, write my final thoughts, mix it, drink it, walk out of the house and go to a tunnel, and just wait for the SN to kick in.
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is there no way for you to get a new one ?
Sending hugs. you are not alone hereI don't have a job and I don't have money for a new one. Thanks, I need those hugs. I'm broken in pieces over here.I work in a chemical lab. We had to clean out a bunch of old chemicals we were not using anymore (safety people get nervous with overloaded shelves of decades old god-knows-what). I helped put the inventory together, got them all boxed up and shipped out. It was only after they were gone that I realized we had a 500g tub of sodium nitrite. We can only procure chemicals if we have approval from a particular project, so I can not just order another one.
Can relate.
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